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Suicide note 2

- hello everyone! One of my voters messages me and asked me to post a real suicide note. So I decided I would post one! This is my suicide not from November 4, 2013 my last suicide attempt. I've gone through therapy and recovery which I'm in now.

WARNING

CAN BE TRIGGERING!

Everyone,

Let's be honest, we all knew this day was coming. We all die in the end so why should it matter when? I've been left by so many people who meant everything to me. Tormented online and bullied in school. When do I get a break? I'm creating my own break. It's going to be a long one too. By the time it's over whoever is reading this will be dead as well as I am. I sometimes lay in bed at night and I can't even cry anymore because I'm numb. I think about how people will react to my death and I imagine how my parents will feel, everything is ending so fast, I don't know why but I'm very scared. I don't want to die I want to live without pain and to be truly happy not that fake smile I would fool everyone with. I'm the type of girl who would stay up till 5 in the morning during the summer depressed cutting herself and when my friends would ask I blamed it on the cat. Is life a game? If so I'm failing, I'm losing and I can't touch reality anymore I ant tell my nightmares and actual life apart they are to close with hardly any difference. There's a different between bye and goodbye, you will see which one I chose. For the people who fatally stuck around and tried helping me thank you. This isn't your fault. I'm leaving soon and I must get ready because I don't know how much longer before I have. Things are getting blurry I can't see straight. My vision is slowing fading. It will be soon. Whatever waits me ahead possibly heaven or hell possibly nothing I will see soon. God have mercy on my soul

- Samantha

November 4, 2013