happiness s.coups

[7] Hwaiting

I got in bed, letting out a sigh as the soft blanket hugged by body, giving me the slightest bit of warmth.

"Tired, huh?" Joshua asks as he gets in his bed as well. "Very." I answered, my response being barely audible.

"Alright. Get some rest Jisu. Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day." Joshua says, making me hum in response.

With that, I shut my eyes and allowed for myself to get some rest. I didn't have much to think of really.

I read some tweets earlier that lingered in my mind.

'I hope the new girl doesn't steal our Oppas.'

'She looked a little lost.. Pedis are you sure about this?'

I began to think of whether or not I was happy in this position and whether or not I belonged.

Fear began to grow inside of me as I doubted myself.

Was I good enough?

I knew that this was just the effect of some tweets. I knew that this feeling would be temporary. I knew that I could fight this.

I sat up quietly, looking over to ensure that I didn't wake Joshua. I went to the living room, shutting the door quietly behind me.

I entered the kitchen, seeing that the lights were on. "Oh.. Seungcheol Oppa, you're awake too?" I asked. He looks over to me and nods.

"Want some tea?" He offers as I sat down. "No, it's okay." I said, giving him a small smile. He nods, taking a sip from his mug.

"So what's your deal? Why are you awake?" He asks with a sigh. "I've been thinking a lot. My thoughts kept me awake." I explained. He nods, understanding my situation.

"I was like that when I first started out too. It's the tweets, isn't it?" He asks, leaning back on the chair.

"Wait.. How did you know?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows. "It's not that hard to tell that they're affecting you. You show your emotions. As if they're on full display." He says with a chuckle.

"Ah.. Really?" I answered, fiddling with my fingers.

He sighs as he sees my state.

"You'll be fine, Jisu. You can't let them get to you." He tells me, as his tone grows more gentle yet leader-like.

You could tell that he genuinely cared. That he was a little upset as well.

"If it makes you feel any better, this happened." He says, showing me his phone.

And there they were, on full display. The boys had tweeted collectively on the seventeen account.

@SVTOfficial : We're happy with her around, we hope that everyone can respect that. We are a family. We protect each other, at all costs. -17

"You guys tweeted this for me?" I questioned, lifting my head up to look at him. "Who else would it be for?" He said, answering my question with a question in itself.

"Thank you." I said, giving him a smile. "You don't have to thank me Jisu. We would've done this for any other member." He says emotionlessly.

There you again, back to being cold.

"I'll leave you be.. Goodnight." I said, after awhile of silence. And just as I was about to leave the kitchen, he says something.

"Jisu." He calls.

I turn around and furrow my eyebrows.

"Hwaiting."