Act Like You Don't Know

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"Gray you should go get some rest" I hear Ethan saying.
"No I'm okay"
"You look terrible"
"I look fine Ethan. I just want Jen to be okay, I'm so worried"
"Me too Gray"
What is happening?
I don't want them to be worried. I don't want Shawn to go away.
I don't want to be the reason why they are so sad.
I don't want to die.

I remember what my mom used to tell me.
She used to tell me how loved I am.
How I'm so precious and important.
I never believed her.
I'm not inportant. Not important enough to have Ethan and Grayson worrying over me.
I'm not important enough to have Shawn somewhere out there searching for the person who hurt me.
I'm nothing.
Why did this even happen?
I never thought I would meet these amazing people.
And now I'm here. Having all three of them worrying about me.
I'm such a bad person.

SHAWN'S POV

There he is. Standing like nothing ever happened. Just standing there playing with his phone like he didn't hurt anyone.
Like he didn't shoot the only girl I ever loved. This is it.
I pull out my gun and point it towards him but I can't. I can't pull the trigger.
It's not that I don't want to. It's that someone just stabbed me. I can't move.
I'm sorry Jen.

JEN'S POV

I hear a phone ringing then Ethan saying
"What? How did this happen. When did this happen? Oh my God"
What? What happened? ETHAN WHAT HAPPENED? I wish I could just scream.
"Gray..."
"What happened Eth?"
"It's Shawn... they... they found him.."
"Ethan shut up and talk to me outside. Jen shouldn't hear this if she can hear us"
Shawn... what happened to Shawn. God what happened to Shawn.
My heart is on fire. I feel like I'm burning from the inside out.
It's all my fault. If I just acted like I knew Grayson when we were on the plane maybe he would've thought I was just a fan and if I didn't continue talking to him maybe we wouldn't have been friends.
Maybe if I didn't bump into Ethan we wouldn't have known each other.
Maybe if I acted like a normal fan would do when I met Shawn this wouldn't have happened.
Maybe if I never went to that hotel I wouldn't have met Shawn.
Maybe..  maybe.... if I can just do this all again.

"Shawn is dead???" Grayson screams.
Shawn is... Shawn is gone?
I feel my body starting to move. Like I'm going to wake up. Like I'm going to be able to walk again. I feel like I'm waking up.... like I can open my eyes.
And I do. I do wake up.
I wake up on the same seat I sat on this morning on the plane.
I wake up next to this handsome guy.
I wake up next to Grayson.

"Hey we're almost there"
And then I don't reply.
"Is everything okay?" he asks.
"You're Grayson Dolan. I know everything about you. I've been a fan since forever"
"You do know me"
"Yes. Yes I do"
Tears fall from my eyes as I turn my head away and quickly get off the plane as soon as we're allowed to.
I remember exactly how I bumped into Ethan. So I take a step away. He walks right past me. Like I never met him. Like I never will. Like I never should.

"Hello. I would like to cancel my reservation for the room in your hotel please"
I can't meet Shawn. I can't be friends with Shawn.
Maybe it was never meant to be.
If I never meet Ethan. If I never meet Grayson. If I never meet Shawn. It would never happen.
And I know that maybe everything I dreamed about wouldn't have happened. But I know that it wasn't a dream. And that God gave me a second chance. A chance to correct my mistakes. A chance to have Shawn alive again and to have Ethan and Grayson happy and making videos for their fans rather than worrying about me.

At least I know that they will be safe. At least I know that I did the right thing.

This is the end of this story. I enjoyed writing it and I really hope you guys enjoyed reading it. I will be making a new story soon so I hope you guys will check it out. I love you all so much and thank you for giving me a reason to write.❤