Act Like You Don't Know

Memories

And just like that...he leaves.
Is Shawn really out of my life?
I don't want him to be. I don't want to spend the rest of my life not knowing what might have happened between us.
But another person comes in the room.
"Jen.. Jen don't leave me"
It's Ethan. Ethan is here.
I can feel his hand on mine. His warm touch making my heart beat faster.
"Jen, please wake up"
I want to Ethan. More than you can imagine. I want to wake up and go after Shawn. I want to wake up and hug Grayson. I want wake up and hug you but I can't.
I'm trying.
"Just don't give up baby please"
Baby.

My mind takes me back to that one night. That night Grayson was at my room. The night we brought Ethan  from the forest. What Gray didn't know was that Ethan came back that night.

*Flashback*

I close the door behind me and head to my bed. I was so tired after this long day. All I wanted was to sleep. But I decide to watch some youtube videos before I do.
After exactly two hours I hear a knock at my door.
It's 12am who could possibly be here at this time?
"Ethan?"
He picks me up and closes the door behind him.
"I missed you"
"Ethan I thought you said we were going to take this eas..."
I'm interrupted by his beautiful eyes staring at my lips.
His eyes were fixed on my lips as mine were on his.
He puts my back against the wall as my legs were already around his waist. The distance that was between us vanishes as we sealed the night with a kiss.
This time it was different. It was filled with passion and desire.
He knew I wasn't ready so he didn't try anything else.
We just laid in bed as my head was on his chest. I could feel his heartbeat. I could feel how alive he was inside.

*end of flashback*

I think about all the memories I made. With Shawn. With ethan. With grayson.
And it hits me.
If I really did die today. God I wouldn't even mind.
I loved, I laughed, I cried.
I met Shawn Mendes.
I met Ethan Dolan.
For heaven's sake I met Grayson Dolan.
Wasn't that my life goal? Wasn't that what I always wanted?
I feel sone kind of peace. I feel important.
I feel like I mean something to someone. I am worth something.
But this thing I'm going through. It's hurting me. Not because I'm actually in physical pain but it's because you can hear the people you love crying thinking they lost you and you can't do anything about it.
It's because you know that if you don't wake up people you care about will get hurt. And you would never want that to happen.

ETHAN'S POV

Like an angel.
No. She really is an angel.
I can't see her like this. I got used to her cheering me up. I got used to her being with me. How can someone I met less than a week ago have this power over me. I want her to wake up but I'm scared she never will.
I'm scared of just the thought of losing her.
"How is she?" I hear Grayson asking while holding two cups of coffee.
"The same as before" I reply as I take one from his hand.
"Gray what in the hell happened anyway?" I scream.
"Can you shut up Ethan. If she can hear you I don't want her to hear us scream. What's done has been done."
"Gray. I'm sorry bro. I just can't help it. I can't see her like this. I love her"

GRAYSON'S POV

And do you think I can?
Do you think my heart doesn't break everytime I remember that she is here because she took a bullet for me?
Because she saved me?
Do you think it doesn't hurt hearing my brother say he loves the only girl I have feelings for?
It hurts. It hurts like hell. But I can't say anything. I can't hurt him aswell.
" I know bro. I know" I simply say.

JEN'S POV
Gray is here. I really hope Ethan doesn't ask him about what happened again. I don't want Gray to feel responsible for what happened to me.
I did this by my own choice. I did this because even though I know Ethan is going to be sad that I am hurt. But I know that he couldn't have lived without Grayson. He couldn't have lived without his brother.
This bullet. This bullet I took wasn't just for Grayson. But for Ethan too.

Hey Guys I really hope you enjoyed this chapter. So the next one is going to be the LAST. But I'm really excited about the ending because I don't think anyone will expect it. I really hope you will like it tho. Be sure to check out the last chapter of this story soon. Love you all❤
PEACE🤘