Healthy Me

Recovery

I've been anorexic for over 3 years and I've had enough. Anorexia has destroyed me in ways I could have never imagined.

I always feel cold and sick, food scares me, but I need food to live.

So I am going into recovery. I don't want to be sick anymore. I want to be ale to eat with out freaking out. I want to be warm and not cold. I want to love myself and not hate myself.

Even though I am going into recovery, I still would like to lose weight. I love my body. I love all my little imperfections. But it would not hurt me to lose just a few pounds and to tone up. I would like to be able to be confident in my own skin.

I have never lost weight the healthy way. I started anorexia when I 12. And I have always worried about my weight. I think I started to really worry about my weight when I was in the 4th grade. I looked up videos on YouTube on how to get a flat tummy in a week, and let's just say that it was dumb for me to think that it would work.

So now I'm in a whole new world I'm a way. I'm going to be learning new things and finding out my place in my world as I do it.

There are a lot of things I would like to do. I'm thinking about doing track and maybe even cheer next year. I would would like to help out with play the rest of my high school years, and join yearbook. (I've loved taking pictures, learned from my mom). I would also like to help my sibling with their sports. I don't want to be the lazy sister anymore. The sister and kid that does no sports or anything to do with fitness. Sports still aren't my thing, but I can still be active.

I know that it will take time for me to reach all my goals that I have, but I know that now. I'm setting more realist goals and learning what is means to be healthy.

So I hope you enjoy my journey? You'll be with me as I learn all these new things I have to learn about the would of healthy!.