Can't Remember To Forget You

Chapter Three: Sometimes Love Can Be Simple.

"Robyn !"
Jay Brown, my manager, shouted out through the phone, I could feel his anger just by the tone of his voice.
"I don't know what's happening to you but I heard you missed most of your last appointments and meetings ! You even missed a photoshoot ! Do you know how much work it takes to plan a photoshoot ?!"
I was tired of hearing his screams and didn't even knew what to answer, I mean, I knew I was wrong to cancel all my meetings and photoshoots last minute.
The problem was that for the last couple of days, I had trouble just getting up from my bed, I knew it wasn't an excuse but I felt exhausted.
"I'm sorry, Jay. It's just that... I don't feel well and I know it's not an excuse but you have to understand me.
- Well, if it's to the point that you can't even work, I have to call a doctor to check on you."
His voice had gone softer and I agreed to welcome the doctor he would call.
He came up to my apartment about an hour later and my friend Jenn let him inside. He examined me and asked a lot of question before finally giving me his diagnosis.
"You're not sick but you need rest, a lot of it, also please quit drinking and smoking for a while."
I guess that was it, my bad life habits finally got the best of me. He still decided to make a couple of tests before leaving so he could analyze it at the lab.
As soon as he left, I received a call from Mike, the guy from the club who I've been messing around with.
"Wanna come over ?
- Sure, I will be there in 5."
He didn't take long to get there as he had an apartment about two blocks away.
It was nice having him by my side, even if it felt more like some type of entertainment more than a real relationship.
"What do you want to do ?
- Well, I have an idea."
He told me while sliding his hand inside my pants but it just straight up annoyed me.
"Seriously, I don't feel well, I'm not in the mood right now."
I could see the disappointment on his face as he almost rolled his eyes on me.
"If you're sick, you should have told me, I don't want to get sick too.
- Well, get out then !"
I was a little bit annoyed by his reaction, like, what an asshole. He would act like a crybaby anytime he wouldn't get something he wanted.
For the first time in a while, I thought about giving Aubrey a call. It has been such a long time since we spend some time together and I knew he would come over as fast as possible.
And, I was right, we spend most of the day cuddling while watching TV. Everything was going well until I heard my phone ringing from under the covers. It took me a while to find it but I did.
"Hello, Robyn Fenty ? It's Doctor Marvin.
- Oh hello.
- I have the results to the tests we've made this morning.
- Oh, I hope everything's alright.
- Well, it seems like you're pregnant."
As the news hit my brain, my eyes started slowly tearing up. A look of concern also grew on Aubrey's face and I had to end the conversation with the doctor quickly.
"What happened, Robyn ?
- Nothing, just forget about it.
- No, seriously, what's wrong ?
- I don't want to tell you...
- Please, Robyn, I... I have feelings for you and I would like to know if there's anything wrong withyour health.
- Don't tell me you have feelings for me, not now...
- Why ? Tell me why !
- I'm pregnant with Mike's child."
The room stayed silent for a moment and I felt that he was confused. I talked to him about Mike on the phone but he didn't know we were that close...
"I don't know what to tell you, I guess good luck with him but I think it's time for me to leave."
His reaction surprised me, he was almost bitter about it but I could understand it.
I started tearing up as soon as he left the apartment, what a dumbass I was. I knew one day he would admit his feelings to me but I decided to go fuck around with some other guy instead of admitting myself that I had feelings for Aubrey.
To be honest, I didn't even think about calling Mike, he was acting like such a jerk lately and I didn't want to deal with him. I decided to get some sleep since I had nothing else to do and everyone had left me alone.

As the last couple of weeks, I woke up with strong nausea and my head pounding. It wasn't the best day for me to feel sick since I had an interview with GoodMorning America today and later on, I had a photoshoot with MAC for my VivaGlam collection.
I was welcomed into the studios of GoodMorning America by my friends, Melissa and Lele who were glad to see me after such a long time.
I enjoyed to see them and they helped me relax before the interview. It actually went really great, no harmful questions were asked and I ended up joining Melissa and Leandra for lunch.
"Three glasses of wine, please."
Melissa asked the server as soon as we got a table, of course, we couldn't have lunch without drinking.
"I'm sorry, I will have water.
- Water ? Robyn, are you pregnant ?"
Leandra asked as soon as the server left the table with their orders.
"No, I'm not ! What are you talking about ?
- Okay, no need to be aggressive...
- I'm sorry..."
I don't know if it was too early to say I had hormonal mood swings but I could be annoyed by anything at this moment.
Luckily, the girls didn't see anything suspicious about how I was. I didn't want to tell them before I had an appointment with my gynecologist so he could confirm the pregnancy.
Lunch went well and I had fun with the girls, I was glad I could get all the drama that was going on in my life out of my head for a couple of hours.
As I walked back to my car,  my phone started ringing and I immediately answered when Aubrey's name popped up.
"Is your relationship with Mike serious ?"
It was the first thing he told me as soon as I picked up the phone.
"No, we're not at the same page. I couldn't care less about him.
- Well, then, do you feelings for me ?
- Oh."
I had to take a long breathe before answering his question.
"I guess so.
- Tell me clearly please.
- Yes, I have feelings for you Aubrey.
- Then, it's all that matters to me..."