Can't Remember To Forget You

Chapter Six: Let's Keep It A Secret.

Rihanna
A mounth later

Aubrey has been a sweetheart with me lately but I was still struggling to cope with the loss of this child. I felt guilty to make him go through all of this with me, I mean, it's not even his child but he's the one who told me he would be there for me, he has to keep his promise.
Sadly, as time went by, I felt him slowly pull away from me. We haven't been able to talk it out and I think it will be difficult for both of us.
I was slowly trying to recover from it, but after all, that child wasn't planned, so it was maybe better that way.
"Robyn, can you just do the hook again ?"
Shawn, better known as Jay Z, shouted from outside of the booth. Lately, I've been working my ass off at the studio with the whole crew and it has been a great way to make me think about something else than the drama going on in my life.
"Okay, fine. We can wrap it up for today, see you all tomorrow morning."
My sound engineer told me before I left to get to my car.
"Robyn ! Robyn !"
I heard someone calling my name from a distance and realized Mike was there, in my studio's parking lot.
"I'm sorry but what are you doing here ?
- Well, they didn't let me into the studio but I came to see you and talk about us.
- Us ? There's no us, I don't know what you're talking about.
- There was at a time, don't lie to me, you know we had fun times together."
He stepped closer but I stepped back, what did he mean by that ?
"Come on, don't be shy."
He stepped closer once again before wrapping his arms around my waist, I knew what he was trying to do.
"I don't know about that, Mike. It's been a while since I've last seen you.
- Well, I miss you and if you miss me as much as I do, come to my place tonight.
- I...
- You don't have to say yes, think about what you really want..."
His invitation bothered me, I could feel chills going down my spine, he had some type of control over my body, it's been a while since I haven't felt that way.
As I was driving back home, his words kept coming up in my head.  I couldn't lie and say that I didn't think about joining him but then I thought about Aubrey, that would be cheating on him and he didn't deserve that.
I finally set my mind to one decision, No I wouldn't go to Mike's place.
"Oh, Robyn. I was about to leave but Aubrey's in the bedroom."
Jenn told me before leaving the apartment, I could hear him getting ready as I approached the bedroom. He weren't quite living together but he had moved some of his stuff over to my apartment.
"Aubrey."
I whispered while making my way behind him and wrapping my arms around his torso.
"Where are you going ?
- I'm going out with the boys.
- Oh well, maybe you have some time for me."
I slowly slid my hand into his pants which surprised him a little bit but he kept his composure.
"Robyn, what are you doing ?
- Don't play the innocent boy, you know what I want.
- Well, I'm sorry but my Tour is starting again in about two days and I have to keep my mind focused on that.
- Are you refusing to have sex with me because of work ? That is the most ridiculous excuse I've heard.
- It's not, listen...
- No, no, come on, we last had sex about a mounth ago, before I lost the baby.
- Well, I waited for you so you can wait for me.
- That's not the same ! I was going through a rough phase that's all.
- Oh, come on, I know that but you could understand me too.
- No, because I know you're making up an excuse. What's the real reason then ?
- I've been thinking about our relationship a lot lately and you should too because things are not going well.
- Are you thinking about breaking up with me ?
- No... maybe I thought about it at some points..."
His answer shook me, was our relationship that bad ? I didn't even know what made him think about it at first. Did I do something wrong ?
No I didn't, he was the one who was making problems up.
After what he had just told me I just went to bed without a word while he was leaving.
You know who I thought about at that exact moment, Mike. It didn't take me a long time before I grabbed my purse and ran to the hall of my building.
As I was walking to the door, I stopped, thinking about my decision.
What about Aubrey ?
Well, you know what ?
Fuck him !
It didn't take long before I reached Mike's apartment, I rang one time and he was already at the door.
"I knew it was you..."
He pulled my body against his and leaned down to give me a passionate kiss. The feel of his hands running down my back to grab my ass made me moan as I pushed him inside the apartment to close the door behind me.