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Miserable

"Nothing left, now I'm feeling numb. And just like you, I couldn't love someone, there is no one I can belong to. Nothing in the cage of my ribcage. Got no heart to break, like it that way. Emptiness is safe, keep it that way. Used to be, I had light. I had fire in my chest; oh, but now I'm all out and I've got nothing left."

"Ya no queda nada, ahora me siento entumecida. Y al igual que tú, no pude amar a alguien, no hay nadie a quien le pueda pertenecer. No hay nada en la jaula de mi pecho. No tengo un corazón que pueda ser roto, me gusta de esa forma. El vacío es seguro, mantengámoslo así. Solía ser, tener una luz. Tenía fuego en mi pecho; oh, pero ahora ya se extinguió todo y ya no queda nada."

Ribcage - Andy Black

"It's like, the more I try, the less I feel. In desperate need of something real. Why, lately I ain't been the same? I try so hard to hide this pain. I search, but I can't ever find. Can't seem to leave my past behind, cause all the ones I hope would stay, are all the ones that fade away.

Truth is I think about you often. I miss your voice, I miss your smile that I used to get lost in. I think I just lost myself, in the midst of the non-sense.

Lately we've been distant, see, I just can't be without you; and my soul got so attached to yours, I can't be me without you. But, we hate ourselves because we run from the people we love, and we all hold on to the past 'cause we miss what it was. Don't wanna feel so we try to numbin' the pain with these drugs.

Living in hell, 'cause we lost faith in the place up above. And my anxiety is breaking me, it kills me. I'm living in a world so fake, I lost touch of the real me. Had to take a look back, just to ask me if I'm still me. And would I still stand for this if they wanted to kill me?

I can't take it no more, I just can't take it no more. I can't smile like I'm okay, I just can't fake it no more. I can't act like I've been happy and complacent no more. Cause every time I try to change, it is the same as before.

I'm drinking 'till all my feelings just fade away again. And mama, she always told me "this ain't the way to live"; but, when you feel what I'm feeling that's just the way it is. I'm trying not to break down but I just can't hide this pain. Saw myself in the mirror and I'm just not the same, but who's to blame? I guess we all change. We hurt the ones we love because of our pain (fuck).

Can't seem to leave my past behind, cause all the ones I hope would stay... are all the ones that fade away.

"Es como si mientras más tratara, menos sintiera. En desesperación por algo real. Por qué últimamente no he sido el mismo? Trato de ocultar este dolor. Busco, pero nunca encuentró. Parece que no puedo dejar mi pasado atrás, porque todas las personas que espero que se queden, son todas las personas que se desvanecen.

La verdad es que pienso en ti seguido; extraño tu voz, extraño tu sonrisa en la que solía perderme. Creo que me he perdido a mi mismo, en el medio de todo este caos.

Últimamente hemos estado distantes, veras, simplemente no puedo estar sin ti; y mi alma se apegó tanto a la tuya, que sin ti no puedo ser yo. Pero nos odiamos a nosotros mismos porque huímos de las personas que amamos, y todos nos aferramos al pasado porque extrañamos lo que era. No queremos sentir, así que tratamos de entumecer los sentimientos con estas drogas.

Viviendo en el infierno, porque hemos perdido la fe en algo mejor arriba. Y mi ansiedad me está quebrando, me está matando. Estoy viviendo en un mundo tan falso, he perdido el contacto con mi verdadero yo. Tengo que mirar atrás sólo para preguntarme si sigo siendo yo. Y aún lucharía si ellos quisieran matarme?