You Can't Stop Us.

Part Twenty-Six

Part Twenty-Six {Paul's POV}

The letter was in her neat tidy hand writing I looked at that notebook page scribbled front and back with words poured out that most likely mean the world to her.

I started to read;

'So Paul, you may find this hard to believe, or you may not. I'm not really sure or anything but whatever.

I have, well problems with opening up to people, most people actually.

When I was in 7th grade I was bulled, a lot. They would find the most pointless things to bother me about and it got to a point where I could take it anymore.

I began cutting.

A lot.

I needed to hurt my self to function. The worst was I had no one to open up to.

My mum was dead, my dad worked and never cared for me. Sure I had some friends, but again, I couldn't open up to people.

In 8th grade it just got worse. I was a a point where I actually tried stealing my dads gun.

He found out and made me start taking classes to help me. They helped a bit but the bullying continued.

In 9th grade it all changed.

I meet you.

I'm not sure if you remember the day we meet, but it was during gym class and I was crying under the bleachers while the class was running the track.

You came over and asked me what was wrong. I never told you, but the girls were calling me fat and I was under the bleachers with my dads gun.

I stole it again and I was just about to pull the trigger until you came over.

You saved me Paul.

Once we started talking and became friends I stopped cutting.

Forever.

It was hard for me to keep my feelings for you inside once we meet. Once we started dating my life has gotten better.

I need you to open up to Paul. I had no one to talk about this and this letter is the first time I am actually talking about my past.

I know you are not very open about words either. But Paul, I love you.

I love you madly.

I may say things that I regret and you may say things that you regret as well.

We will do things that piss each other off.

We will do the most stupidest things ever to each other but I will always love you.

I will never get tired of you I will never stop loving you no matter what I say.

Now that you're reading this I assume we are having a fight because I told you to open this if we are fighting.

But you need to know I love you and I will forever and always.

Hayley.'

I sobbed lightly once I found out my Lee cut.

She spilled her feeling out on this page for me. She had only opened up to me.

She said she loved me and she always will.

I felt a bit better about this but I do need to give her space.

And I will.

But it will be hard.

~for those of you who suffer or know someone who suffers from depression, cutting, anorexia, self harm, etc, i am deeply sorry for you and ps i love you and your wanted here. this is not something to joke about and it is serious and my prayers go out to you <3 ~