HAVN'T UPDATED IN A WHILE. I HAVE BEEN READING MY STORIES AND I NOTICED HOW MANY TYPOS I HAVE DONE AND THAT LOU HASN'T TOLD LIAM THE WHOLE STORY ABOUT AUSTIN. WELL... ENJOY ;)
Louise's P.O.V
Me and the love of my life lied on our backs in a patch of daisy's staring at the clouds. Austin was holding me close and also holding my hand. I rested my head on his shoulder and sighed.
"The clouds are so beautiful today. aren't they?" I asked my boyfriend. He nodded and kissed my forehead. I blushed a light shade of pink.
"Way to far away from how beautiful you look." He replied sweetly. I blushed a crimson red and hid my face in the crook of his neck.
"I'm wearing leggings and an old sweatshirt, ya know?" I reminded him and he kissed me cheek. He sat up and brought me with him.
"Have I told you how much I love you?" He asked. I giggle and look into his piercing green eyes.
"Several times... this morning." I said. He laughed and our lips connected. He let go of me soon after.
"Come on! we're going to be late for school!" He said and stood up. I stood up with him and grabbed my book bag. The daisy patch behind the old barn at my house is where we would go and just hide from everyone. We raced each other to school.
After lunch, I walk down the hallway with Brooke. Then I froze in my tracks and almost fell. The love of my life, the only boy that ever told me he loved me, was snogging another girl. Not just any other girl that you meet in the hallway, this was... Georgia Jones. I dropped my books with a big BOOM! Austin looks over at me and lets go of Georgia. I walk up to him.
"Lou.. I.. This isn't what it looks like." He said and tried grabbing my hand. I yank my hand away and the tears that formed into my eyes fell and dribbled down my cheek. I used the back of my hand to wipe them.
"Save it, Austin!" I nearly yell and start to walk away. I run into the restroom and cry. I scream and cry. I punch the wall and hit my head onto it. I am purposely hurting myself to get the memory out of my head but it wouldn't seem to go away. I scream bloody murder and cry again. I went in my book bag and took out my extra pair of scissors I forgot to bring to Social Studies class. I lifted up my sleeve and cut myself. I cut over and over and over again and never stopped. My arm was full of blood but I didn't care. Once again, I let out a ear-piercing screech
*END_OF_DREAM*
"Lou, come on. Stop crying. Ow! It's just me." I hear a soft voice say. I shot up from my bed. It was all just a dream... more like a flashback. I wipe my eyes. Was I actually crying? I look over at Liam and lunge for him. I held onto him for dear life and cried.
"Lou? Are you alright? You kept screaming and crying and hitting me. What's wrong?" He asked never letting go of me. Did we fall asleep in the same bed? No time to ask. He rubbed circles on my back and I kept crying. He hushed me and kissed my forehead. That calmed me down a bit. He rested his chin on the top of my head and kissed my head. I stopped crying. Wow. All I needed was someone to love me to calm me down.
"It.. it was just a nightmare. Well.. more of a flashback, about Austin." I told him and sniffled. I just realized that I haven't told Liam about Austin. He is going to find out now.
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked still rubbing circles on my back. I let go of him and looked at the clock. It read: 2:00 AM. I sigh and look at Liam. I nodded.
"Well, I should start from the beginning. Austin was a popular kid. I had a bit of a crush on him. He was really cheesy but really sweet. He asked me out one day. He got down on one knee and handed me a flower. It was an iris, my favorite flower. I agreed and we went on a date. We got to know each other really well. He knew all of my secrets and I know all of his. Austin and I kept each other for 2 years till that day. It was 7:55 in the morning I think. We were lying down in the daisy patch behind my old barn back home. That's where we always hid. He told me that he loved me for, like the 100th time that morning and we raced towards the school. After lunch I was walking down the hallway and I saw something that I never thought that I would ever see." I told him and tears started forming in my eyes. Liam grabbed my shoulders and looked me right in the eyes.
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." He reminded me. I shook my head.
"No. You deserve to know." I said and took in a deep breath.
"I saw.. The first boy who has ever told me he loved me, the love of my life, kissing another girl. He told me what every boy says when the get caught, he said it isn't what it looks like but I told him to save it. I ran into the restroom and cried for what felt like hours. I decided, the only way to ease the pain in my heart was to create more pain somewhere else." I told him. He looked at me questioningly. I sigh and lift up the sweatshirt Liam let me borrow. I showed him several cuts on my right and switched over to my left.
"The only way was to start cutting myself. Each one if one of my insecurities. I have a whole lot. A couple are my failures that I made in life and the people that I've lost and never would get back." I said. The tears spilled out like a river. Liam grabbed my arm and kissed every single one of them.
"What are you doing?" I ask and hiss in pain when he reaches the one I made a couple of days ago when I had my break-down in front of Harry.
"My mum used to tell me that a kiss healed all wounds." He replied and kept kissed the cuts.
"I haven't been there for you. I wasn't there to stop you. I wasn't there to make sure your OK. I wasn't there to hug you and tell you it was going to fine. I wasn't there to dry your tears. I needed to be there. I need you to stop. I don't know what I would do to myself if you hurt yourself again. I promise that I would never hurt you, ever." He said. I saw that his eyes were watering to. I wiped his tears with the back of my hands. I kissed his cheek and hugged him.
It was silent for a while until Liam said it was time for us to lie down. When we both lied down he brought me in closer and wrapped his arms around my waist. He whispered in my ear..
"I promise"
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