Not His Juliet

Chapter 10

Lone Star by K. Jessica Ramirez

Chapter 10:

"Maybe my son ain't paid you none attention cause once he came home he realized you ain’t nothing but city folk trash."

This is maybe the third time during my whole trip that I've even talked to this woman and she thinks she has the damn right to speak to me this way hell no. If this is how bonding and being polite is considered in her book she needs to go back to school.

"I am not trash and even if I am at least I'm not scum like you. What kind of worthless person treats people the way you've treated me this whole trip?" I counter.

Susan opens her mouth to reply but I cut her off. I've heard enough of her damn country accent to last me a lifetime.

"James and I came on this trip to come visit his family because he wanted to so I went along with it to make him happy but I promise you one thing If I were to pack my bags and leave there’s no doubt he'd follow me without ever looking back!" 

I'm screaming at her with everything I've got. After everything I've put up with and everything I've done to make everyone happy while I just wallowed in my own despair and she tries to tell me I'm not good enough. 

I turn to watch her reaction to my words but she just stands there staring at me like I'm the devil. What I said to her I at least hope would be true. Based on how James has been acting I'm starting to doubt he jump up and leave at a moment’s notice to please me. However I need her to believe me. Something about how everyone acts around James tells me he hasn't been home even before I met him. Susana has to be at least a little scared that I could convince James to leave with me and never come back. She is after all his mother even if she is the damn she devil herself.

 I just hope she won't call my bluff. Really thinking about it James would probably have my ass for speaking to his mother like this let alone follow me blindly. I'm giving her my best poker face with a smudge of my 'Go ahead test me bitch' face.

"Let's take this inside" Susana says her voice tight.

"No."

"You are causing a scene!" Susana says her voice even tighter but more hushed.

At that moment I almost see James himself standing before me and it only sparks my anger even more. James is the whole reason I'm even in this mess. I shouldn't be knee deep is Texas dirt arguing with his mother. I should be in New York where I belong with James by my side doing what we're good at business not this whole fucking thing we're doing that I can’t even begin  to understand.

"You know what?" I say making my voice sound sickeningly sweet.

Susana watches me attentively but questionably. She nods for me to continue. I force a fake bright smile on my face and say.

"I don't give a fuck."

Her eyes widen at shock that I'd even go against her once I was warned about the watching by standers. In the next second her eyes are hard and glaring at me like I'm the vain of her existence. Good. In the next second her grabs hold of my wrist trying to pull me inside the house and away from preying eyes.

My reflexes take over and all my lesions of mixed martial arts kick in. I wrap my own hand over her forearm and push her against the barn in an iron lock that could very well break her arm if I were to tighten it.

"Don't you ever in your life ever, touch me again. Be thankful that I feel fucking generous today." I whisper in her face venom seething out of my teeth with every word.

I let her go pushing her against the barn again causing her to fall to the ground. I don't bother helping her up. I turn and start walking towards nothing really.