Toxic air

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by magicaltribute

by magicaltribute

Why,
Oh why,
Don't I stop?

It hurts,
It is frustrating,
Makes my body ache.
It makes me feel
The consequences
Even days after.

So why,
Oh why,
Do I keep doing it?

Doing it
But also skipping
Sends my mind
On dark journeys
That cannot
Be forgotten.

I can't stop
I get anxious
When I skip it.

Skipping it means:
No sleep
Panic attacks
More toxic thoughts
Eating habits changing
Body image dropping.

It is toxic
But it is also
My life source.

Skipping only once
Brings days of darkness.
And even though
The consequences
Of doing it are bad,
Skipping it is fatal.

It's like breathing in toxic air.
It is better than no air at all.
Or maybe not?
-V.K