Falling For Ashton Parker || UNEDITED

24 | CHAPTER TWENTYFOUR

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H A P T E R T W E N T Y F O U R
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What the hell did I just do? What am I doing? How did this even happen? Why am I letting it happen? All the thoughts rushed through my head. I didn't wanna be here anymore. It was uncomfortable on both ends.

I pulled away and let the anger of Jordan kissing me stay inside. Because I kissed him back.

I kissed my best friend lover. What have I done?

"I shouldn't of done that," Jordan whispered to himself. His blank expression made me feel guilty. We were both guilty in this. How did this happen?

"I should go," I mumble, opening up Tanners door and sliding our.

"Dani?" Tanner asked. He was standing outside his door just about too open it. Deep down I'm happy he didn't. His face looked angry, angry at Matthew. Angry at the decisions he made in life. Just angry.

I realized Tanner has kept in all his anger this whole time. No one bothered hearing how he felt. Felt about all of this. He just wanted too be supportive to our mom. Put everyone else needs and emotions in front of his own.

Jordan kiss stained my lips, but I could see the look in Tanner's eyes. He needed to let all of his anger out before he blows up, screwing up his life forever.

"I'm sorry, just needed to get out of that toxic room," I lie too him. Yet it was sorta the truth. He didn't know what just happened. What I did and no one gonna know. I rather have it eat me alive then let anyone else know. Breaking Grace's heart after everything she's done to me. I couldn't live with that.

Jordan came out thinking I was gone. You could feel the awkwardness in the air. So could Tanner I bet.

"Let's go for a ride," Tanner suggested on his own behalf. He wanted to get out of this house as much as I did.

I slipped into the passenger seat and Jordan slipped into the back. A new one. Usually I'm in the back but Tanner wanted me up front for once.

School wasn't out so the roads were empty. A storm formed over us and it was only a matter to seconds before the rain fell. Too warm for snow.

It brought back memories as we neared the canyon. The canyon is a beautiful drive, we use to go on it all the time when we needed a drive, but its made me feel different now. After the accident, this rode doesn't feel the same. The flash backs of the white truck burned my brain. Ashton burned it.

"I use to love this road," Tanner told us all. "Use to come out here and drive. Just me and the music and the open road."

I realized that Tanner trusted us, else he wouldn't be telling us all this. I knew about Tanners nightly drives. He did them after our dad left. Just like me and my camera, it allowed Tanner to connect with him when he's gone. Tanner misses our father more then he makes everyone think. He misses the life he would of had if everything went as it was suppose too be. The happy ending our family was suppose to have.

The trees passed by our car, bringing back the memories of the crash. I felt my shoulders tight up every time I saw a white truck. Rain began to fall harder onto us halfway through the drive.