billie-jean's p.o.v:
i was sitting in the backseat of mums car, mum and matty sitting in the front. i had the window down, with the wind flowing through my thick strands of curly black hair.
from the sound of the wind in my ears, i didnt hear matty calling my name until he turned around and poked my cheek, making me turn back to reality. his face looked....concerned?
"what would you like for lunch?" who knew such a simple question could make a person completely turn. "nothing. im not hungry anyway" i shrugged turning back into my world. my quiet, peaceful and sad world.
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we just arrived home and i paraded into my room, closing and locking my door, sitting down with my dark emerald green guitar. 'cody' is what ive named the polished beauty.
i was just strumming different chords and tunes until i became bored. putting 'cody' back, i grabbed my phone and opened spotify. i scrolled through my playlists when i landed on one that said 'EDEN'.
i clicked it and pressed shuffle. my phone was connected to my speakers, so when the song rock + roll started playing i jumped slightly.
satisfied with my music, i grabbed my packet of cigarettes and a lighter and went onto my balcony that faced the woods/backyard.
i sat down and slid my jean clad legs through the rails. grabbing a cigarette, i placed it between my teeth and grabbed my lighter, slightly covering the cancer stick and lit it. i breathed in a great amount of smoke, holding it a bit longer than blew it into the cool afternoon air.
after i smoked a couple of cigarettes, matty came knocking in my door, saying it was time for dinner. i was shocked because we normally eat at eight, and i didnt notice that it had gone dark.
this is what happens when im left alone with my harsh, damaging thoughts.
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a/n: hey girls and guys <3 how are you? im sorry if the chapters are a bit short but im still learning to write properly. anyway i hoped you like this chap. oh! also go check out EDEN he's a really good artist. vote and comment. thank you xx stay alive |-/
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through the dark// j.d au
Fanfiction"are you okay?" "sometimes" lower case intended. may be triggering so be careful. contains: selfharm, suicide/suicidal thoughts, strong language in some areas. enjoy =]
