This going to be a long ass chapter but this is where it gets good
Cause I have hella feelings for you, I act like I don't fucking care, Like they ain't even there, 'Cause I have hella feelings for you, I act like I don't fucking care, 'Cause I'm so fucking scared
~~~~~at kandi's house~~~~~ Hydi:wassup fuckers Me:bitch Glory:what movie we watching Me:rings bitch!! Ayo:stop screaming Me:my bad
Hydi put the movie in and we all got on the couch me and teo sat on the pallet we made on the floor Him:you know imma always be there for you Me:how do i know that for sure Him:*shrugs*trust me Me:*holds his hand*you on drugs fam Him:*laughs*what Me:you are so nice and sweet to me pouring your heart out to me and im sitting here telling you im not letting my guard down you still here most nigga would be on to the next girl why you still here Teo:*shrugs*i really don't know...I've never felt this way before im just going with the flow i guess Me:hmmm okay Him:why Me:*shrugs*just wondering you know Him:you wanna go talk somewhere else Ayo:yes please can't hear shit over yall loud asses Zavi:fr take that shit somewhere else fam Me:yall stay ruining the moment for a nigga huh
We got up and went to kandi's guest room i sat on the bed nervously
Me:i trust you teo so imma tell you a story about me that might change how you feel about me......when me and zay were 12 we were real close he was my best friend i liked him alot and i wanted to be more every day i'd come to school and girls would talk about how they lost their virginity and how ever boy wanted them after i thought that would be the perfect way to get zay to like me so i called him up one day and told him.....how i wanted my first time to be with him he came over the next day and...we..did it *crying* monday i came to school and everyone was staring at me i felt weird so i decided to talk to zay and when i walked to his locker...i saw him and hayden golds kissing when they stopped he told her that i meant nothing to him and i was just a hit and quit he only loved her those word hurt so bad it felt like i was shot i felt numb finally a girl came up to me and told me why everyone was staring at me that day....she said it was because people think i gave zay a STD another girl said because i payed zay to have sex with me some people even said i was pregnant by him it was everything but the real story i tried to get zay to tell the truth but he wouldn't talk to me i was alone eventually i started cutting my mom took me to therapy which help a little and we moved but i finally got the guts to come back and i met you and im scared *sobs*im scared to fall for you im scared to love you Him:*speechless*i---uh.....*hugs me* Me:*sobbing* Him:so that's how you and zay know eachother Me:y-yeah Him:....i know it seems hard sometimes im sorry that happen to you baby girl....the truth is everybody is going to hurt you..but you got to find the ones worth suffering for..........*whispers*am i worth it jamie am i worth the pain? Me:i dont know Him:*wipes my eye's* I'll let you have your space i know this was hard for you Me:thank you
Then he left i got myself together and walk out the room to see everyone packing up and leaving
Me:damn the movie over already Hydi:yep and mom has a surprise for us..so lets go
I looked over and saw imprint and glory talking i smiled and got my stuff Kandi:*hugs me* bye cousin Me:bye baby Hydi:come on let's get going ppl Ayo:no hug...okay i see you Hydi:*hugs him* bye lil boy Ayo:bye Me:get you some ayo Ayo:*laughs*
We left kandi's house and went over to our house
Us:we home Mom:im in the kitchen Me:oouuu food
We walked in the kitchen and see my mama cooking some shrimp fried rice😍😍😍 Me:yasss Hydi:soo what's the surprise Mom:well.... Glory:mom*whines* Mom:okay....your dad is coming tommorow Me:YAYY Glory:ooo i have so much to tell him Hydi:why is he coming, not that im not exided i am he's my dad an-- Me:hydi you running your mouth again Hyd:oh my bad Mom:he just wanna see yall oh jamie he wanted you to call him Me:cool*runs to my room*
I sat on my bed took a shower and put on this
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And i called my dad it rung twice before he answered
Him:heyy baby Me:hey daddy i miss you Him:i miss you too honey how are you Me:fine a little shaky at times but you know Him:how's your mother
I laughed at his tone of voice
Me:she's fine i think she misses you Him:well i definitely miss her crazy ass...jamie you know why i asked for you to call me Me:no not really Him:jamie...i got remarried Me:...uh...oh Him:i wanted you to be the first to know because i knew you'd take it a little better Me:daddy i just want you to be happy and if it takes you being remarried....fine Him:thank you baby i love you Me:i love you too Him:oh and i--- **BOOM** phone:*static* Me:d-daddy?--
Its been an hour I told my mom what happened I was pacing around the room mom was talking on the phone to someone Mom:.....OH GOD me:mom? Glory:JAMIE DAD'S BEEN SHOT me:WHAT hydi:COME ON WE HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL we all ran out and sped to the hospital i could bearly see it was a mixture of rain and tears in my eyes we ran into the hospital and got the room number i was sitting in the waiting area crying and screaming ayo teo kandi zavi and imprint came they knew zay was the last person i wanted to see right now
Doctor:family of devon taylor moore
We all stood up Me:is he okay,when can we go see him Doctor:im sorry to tell you this mrs.moore but.....he died on the operating table from loss of blood Me:?:you're lying *shakes head*no Doc:im sorry he's gone Glory:please no*cries* Hydi:*crying*no no Me:*screams*fuck Mom:jamie calm down he's in a better place..god h--- Me:GOD..GOD? NO THERE IS NO GOD IF THERE IS THEN WHERE TF IS HE HUH...you know what im done...everyone i love or care for leaves me*crying* Mom:bab-- Me:teo drive me home Teo:jay i thin-- Me:drive me home! Mom:*tries to hug me* Me:NO IT'S YOUR FAULT YOU PUSHED DAD AWAY IF IT WASNT FOR YOU HE'D STILL BE HERE mom:*cries harder*jamie... Hyd:teo..maybe you should take her home Teo:mrs.moore? Mom:it's fine Teo:*nods* He drove me home and we went inside i ran up to my room and stated to throw stuff everywhere glass was breaking and everything but i didn't care i finally snapped Teo:jamie stop please Me:*falls to the ground crying* Teo:*hugs me crying*im sorry Me:why*sobs* Teo:i know you've been through it baby girl but you gotta be tough for me and tommorow you'll wake up stronger than you were before but i want you to stick your chest out keep your head up and handle it and if i gets to hard...call me,I'll be right there day or night Me:please dont leave me Him:of course Me:and teo Him:hmmm Me:*sniffs*.....thank you
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. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Aww so sad and sweet at the same time hope you enjoyed it tho if you did comment vote and add this to your library so you can keep up with jamid and her story hopefully im reaching out to the crowd im trying to influence im just telling you guys that you're not alone keep your head up and be strong you'll see more of that towards the end of the book love ya😍😍😚😚😚
