FAT ·Alpha· Completed-*Editing*

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When I got home I was welcomed by the sweet sound of my mothers voice singing to a song. Her voice was soothing it helped when I was little when I would come home crying from being called fat. She would just sing for me and I would forget all the troubles I had, she was my mom she was always there for me. I walk to the kitchen where she was preparing me a snack she smiled sweetly when she saw me. Oh, how munched I loved my mother smile she would always bring me a little joy. My farther though he was tough love he can be sweet at times and very strict and harsh. He is very harsh on my weight and the only reason he is changing my diets so I would be happy and that he loves me. But what I don't get is if your my parent shouldn't you love me either way? When I was done with my snack my mother said we would be leaving shortly for the appointment. So, I went up stairs and started on my homework but at least tried to just the thought if Nick talking to me sent chills down my spine his green eyes memorized me. I hear my mom

"Honey , you ready I don't want to be late for the appointment".

" Coming" I said.

I walk down the stairs dreading for this appointment I just absolutely hate it . We walk to the car and I get into to the passenger seat and put in my headphones and listen to Linkin park

numb

I'm tire of being what you want

me to be

feeling so faithless

lost under the surface

I don't know what

you're expecting of me

put under the pressure

of walking in

you're shoes

( caught in the undertow . just caught in the undertow)

every step that I

take is another

mistake to u

(caught in the undertow . just caught in the undertow )

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there

become so tired

so much more

aware

I'm becoming this

all I want to do

is be more like me

and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me

holding too

tightly

afraid to lose

control

cause everything that you thought I would be

has fallen apart

right in front of you

chorus

every step I take

is another

mistake of you

(caught in the undertow . just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can

feel your pain .

my song ends I put on

kiss me by the fray that song has always gave me butterflies for some reason listening to that song makes me want to love someone you know ? I listen to a couple more and we stop at the clinic. I take 3 deep breaths and take out my headphones and confidently walk out the car with my mom. When we walk in it is so freezing in the waiting room. I sit down in the waiting room while my mom checks in. I start to daze off and think would my life be better if I was skinny. But I got my thoughts snapped out of, it was because they called my name I slowly get up from seat and I walk to the nurse. While she guides us she tells me to stand under this height thingy. I'm 5'7 and then I take my shoes off and step on to the scale and what I dreaded came true I gained 75 pounds . I'm now 301 lbs I see tears forming in my mom's eyes she walks out the hospital room. I sit there disappointed my mom was the only one who is proud of me and I disappointed her. The doctor came in and told me I should go on a diet if I want to lose weight. My mom sits there and gives me a hopeful smile witch always would cheer me up. We walk out the clinic and says maybe you should go on a diet you know just to get some weight off honey.

" you struggle going up the stairs so maybe it won't be so bad."

I sit there expressionless in the car, on the drive home my dad calls to see how it went and when he heard I gained 71 pounds. He flipped my mom try to calm him down while on the phone I can hear him saying,

"honey she is 16 she shouldn't be this huge I love her dearly but she is fat and needs to loose weight because honestly no guy will really want a girl like that. She can barely make it up the stairs. All I'm saying is she need to lose a couple of pounds."

Hearing those words stung me my own dad calling me fat and saying no one will love me. It hurt so much when we got home I ran so fast that I startled my dad when he came to greet me. I did not care I locked my door and laid in the bed. I just cried my eyes out and I cried so much I fell into a deep sleep .

NightmAre: I wake up in a forest with whole bunch of vines and surrounding by darkness I hear Howling coming. I get up and hear a Dominic voice approach me and I see a tall blonde guy with amazing hazel eyes with plump pink lips that I just could kiss. But I guess he knew what I was thinking cause he smashed his lips on mine and when he was done he through against me the tree saying you whore skank your a no body . He throws a rock against my head and I hear a crack . Then he throw me to the ground and beats me with a stick I scream for help . He bends down and says princess no one could help you and next thing I know he plunged a knife into my stomach I grow blurry I see stars and everything goes black

End of NightmAre

I wake up screaming in pain my parents came rushing in they seemed frightened and called for ambulance. Then what I realized that was nightmare had as true I lay there half dead .

Author's note :

Alright so I think my story pretty good so far actually , also if you have any suggestions feel free to message. also if you have any question leave in comments below. I love Andy sixx from bvb or know as Andy beirsack. I love that guy I also love Louis Tomlinson .thanks

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bye beautiful people ;)

just keep swimming , swimming

I got that from finding nemo

I know I'm weird but I like it Oo