FAT ·Alpha· Completed-*Editing*

sexual attraction

Nick came home and omg we have been so touchy and I have been telling him I'm not ready for you know what. Then he gets upset cause he can't control his emotions for me. Like Damn I'm sorry geez like u said u needed to mark me so I let you. Now you pist like please better check your self like Shit I'm just trying to help and you are being suck an ass!

Like for real dude I thought it was supposed to be me and you time and we are just falling apart. Like it's not my fault  don't want to loose my virginity yet. Like I'm only 16 and trust me I'm not loosening it any time soon.

It's just he can't seem to accept that like it's not my fault it really isn't I can't help it. He knew what he was getting himself in to .

Speak of the devil he walks in and may I see he looks sexy like he just got out the shower. He has the towel wrapped around his hips showing his v line and there are water droplets on his chest . His hair is messy but it's so appealing like I just want to go kiss him.

He notices me staring and say " like.what you see speak now or for ever hold ur peace." I laugh hysterically and we both laugh and stay quiet. It was good quiet and we just smiled and held hands. I finally get up and say I need to shower , I go to the dresser and get out a red lace bra and black thong and a over seized t shirt and shorts. I grab my towel and walk into the bathroom. I turn the the show nob on , and let is warm I undress myself .

I didn't realize I was crying until I felt a tear fall from my face ,just looking at my scars made me cry so much. The question that stills roam my head is why is he still with me like he could of rejected me. But he.is still with a fat piece of Shit  Like me.

I got in the shower and rubbed my strawberry kiwi body wash on me . I lather it until u can smell the sweet goodness I grab my razor and press it against my stomach until I see blood Ozzie out. I slice my stomach at least 10 times. I was the blood off I let the hot steamy droplets warm me up.

I went my long hair and add some watermelon shampoo and raspberry conditioner and lather it together. I wash it out and turn the knob off and grab my towel.

I wrap it around my body and grab my lotion and lotion up my body until I feel a pair strong hand at my waist.  I feel his warm minty breath kiss my neck and he moves around to find my weak spot . He kisses my jaw line I feel a moan coming but I will not let him win this one. But I.give in and a light moan escapes my lips .I feel smile come across his lips and he frowns .

I from at that and he looks at me sternly and tears escapes his eye's and I looked down I bled through the towel. He slowly moves it and he sees my 10 scars on my stomach . He carries me and places me on the sink and whispers to me ." why your so beautiful". I cry hard cause I feel terrible for making him feel like this.

He looks at me and says" how can I prove to u that ur the most beautiful ". I  just don't know.why your with me "!.
" I'm with you cause your beautiful and u have the Hughes heart not just only ur my mate but I.have had this crush on u since forever just never had the nerve to tell. But when I found out until we're my mate everything was falling Into place. cause knowing someone I love is gonna be with me forever . made me the happiest guy alive . And if u can't see your beauty then I will show how much prove to u. That smile is like a thousand Sun's. Your eyes give me hope everyday and ur voice calls me down when I'm angry and ur heart makes me know that u will not only love me but u will always be there for me. Annaylise your not ugly but beautiful and I love you for your very imperfections. I love you for you !" I cry silently knowing that he really does love me.

He starts to kiss my scars one by one and makes his way up to my lips. we lock them together and we kiss with so much passion . He carries me to the bed and lays me down and we make out . His hands move around my body he kiss every stretch Mark . He whispers to me " I love you<3" I smile and realize that I'm the luckiest girl in the world. That he loves me for me.