Just Patiently Waiting For You To Notice Me (Kellic BoyXBoy)

Chapter 18

Vic's POV

He walked out on me again.

It's been an hour since he left and I just stopped crying. I only forced myself because there was a nurse who was going to come in anytime soon.

I was right as she looked from the ground as she walked in. "What happened if I may ask?" She questioned and got a board from the end of the hospital bed.
"What do you mean?" I asked, completely unaware of what the hell she was talking about.

"I seen a boy come in here about an an hour and fifteen minutes ago. He left and is still crying by the door. Like he's sobbing." She sat in the chair.

"He's still out there?" I asked. She nodded, "He hasn't moved."

"I guess I technically broke up with him. I love him but he hurt me so bad. And he won't even tell me where he was for the two weeks." I breathed into my hands.

"Wanna try to get it out of him more? I can give you the okay to walk around with the IV."

I thought about it. Did I really want to be with him still? Is that honestly a question. I want to be with him my whole life. I can't even be without him and the only way to get him back is to forgive him.

"P-Please?" I whimpered up at her. She gave me a smile. After writing on the board she came over to me. "I'll wait at the desk for you. You might be a little weak. Just sit down next to him, take his hand, and ask him to explain. I promise Vic, you'll be okay." She caressed my face. It's been awhile since I've been in here but she's like a sister.

"Okay. Thank you." I slid my legs over the edge of the bed. She stuck out her arm and let me hold on and lean on her.

When we got to the door, she was right. Kellin had his head buried in his arms, his shoulders were shaking and there were tiny whimpers coming from him.

I moved next to him, not saying a thing and slid down, holding Neveah's hands so I didn't fall. I slid slowly and not touching him. He hadn't known I was here.

I nodded at Nev, letting her know she's okay to go and grabbed Kellin's hand from under his arm. He jumped and looked at me, tears still pouring from his eyes. I moved the cart thing holding the in to next to me and dropped his hand. His eyes dropped when I dropped them but I wiped his eyes. "Stop crying. Tears don't look good on you." I whispered.

"I'm sorry Vic, I'm so fucking sorry." He breathed and more tears came from his eyes.

"Kell-Kells.... what were you caught up with?" I asked him. He rubbed his face and then looked up to me. "Drugs. Weed, the temptation to do Heroine, I was drunk the whole time too. I.... I didn't even fucking know we weren't talking. I asked Jesse this morning if you were still coming over for drinks. Like I didn't fucking know, I fucked up. And as soon as I was told, I snapped out of it. Mike beat the shit out of me, and I didn't even remember it five minutes later. I'm.... I don't even know. I can't lose you Vic. I can't. Please."

I want to forgive him.

But when I stayed silent, he stood up. "I'm sorry, I'm... um I'll just go." He started walking. I got up, taking all my strength from me. I walked as fast as I could and grabbed his wrist. He hissed and looked back, but I pulled him too me and kissed him. He was frozen for no longer then a few seconds before he kissed me back. A few people cheered, seeing as we were by a desk of doctors and nurses.

When we pulled away he set his head into chest. "I can't lose you either." I whispered as I wrapped my arms around him.

He drug his head into my neck and I felt his smile, but I also felt wetness. He was still crying.

"C'mon, lets go back to the hospital room." I told him and pulled away. He nodded and he helped me walk back. I sat on the edge of the bed and he sat in the chair.

"Thank you Vic." He mumbled and played with his sleeve. I knew what he did. He hissed when I grabbed his wrist, but I mean look where I am.

I reached down for his hand, "Come lay with me." A small smile peaked from his lips as he climbed up.

He leaned on my shoulder and I think he closed his eyes. I though, I took his hand, and held it before raising his sleeve.

"We're going to stop, together. We're gunna get better." I assured he nodded and looked up to me. "I'm sorry."

"Stop apologizing. I forgive you."

He bit his lip before digging his head into my chest. I rubbed his back as he curled up onto me. It didn't last long though, he started to bite at his nails and fidget. I decided to see what was up. I sat up, causing him to too, then moved so my legs were crossed. "What's wrong?" I asked.

He shook his head and put down his hand. "Nothing, sorry. I'm just uh..." He trailed off. "Don't hid anything from me Kellin, and I mean anything." I made him look up to me. His eyes were green again, I really needed to find out what that meant. "I've been smoking and I just really want a cigarette." He rubbed his hands against his face before sighing.

"It's not good for you, y'know?" I questioned. "I know, but... but when I get high I also get really suicidal, and I was. So throughout every time Jesse would give me one and his are mixed with menthol which I usual don't smoke but it calmed me more and I actually would just drink more and pass out." He explained. I nodded and let go of his hand. "Go out and smoke one if you want, but you've gotta promise to come back." I told. He shook his head and leaned forward to kiss me. I met with his lips. "I'll be back, just gimmie five minutes." He assured and left. I felt lonely while he was gone but he did eventually come back.

"When are you getting out of here?" He asked and jumped onto my my side. "Tomorrow."

Kellin's POV

I kissed Vic's head as we were at the park. I didn't want to go to Vic's parents because well his parents are there and so is Mike. Mike hasn't told Vic that I threatened him. I didn't mean it, I was fucking pissed though.

"What do you want to do with your life?" I asked him. We were laying on a blanket as the sunset with a half eaten basket behind us, my date.

"I wanna change the world. Be on a stage, singing my heart out to the songs I've written with my buddies, I wanna be able to wipe someone's tears when no one else would, even if it's over a pair of earphones. I want our band to make it. I don't know if I told you but Hime-Time Tony Mike and I, We've got a band" He was smiling off at the sky. "Baby? What about you? I've never heard you talk about your future."

"I'm actually also in a band thing that I'd love to have us make it and change lives. I just love to be on stage, and to travel. I love to sing and express myself through it." I smiled at him as he moved some hair from my face. "Why did you cut your hair?" He frowned. "Now I look like the bottom. "

"I was high, and Jesse didn't give up the chance." I laughed. "Do you think we'll ever make it?"

"I'm sure if it's right."

That sounded perfect.

I turned and made it so he was holding onto me. "I love you." I whispered. "I love you too Kells. So much. " He breathed against my neck