In The Name Of Love |seulmin|

FIFTEEN

Jimin's POV

Pinagmasdan ko si mama na wala pa ring malay sa hospital bed, she had a car accident 2 days ago, She was still in coma, maraming aparatong nakakabit sa katawan niya, wala naman din itong itinamong grabeng bone damage pero marami siyang sugat at bugbog sa katawan.

"Babe, everything will be okay stop worrying, magigising si ang mama mo" naramdaman ko ang paghaplos ni Seulgi sa aking braso nakahanap ako ng sandalan sa kanya, I'm a strong man but I realized na mas magiging malakas pa pala ako kapag may taong nagpapalakas ng loob ko

"I always thought that mom was happy being alone, my dad didn't love her, hindi niya kami minahal kaya inabandona niya kami" sabi ko kay Seulgi

"Sigurado ka bang hindi niya minahal ang mama mo?" tanong niya

"What do you mean?" napatingin ako sa kanya

"What if your father really loves your mom pero hindi lang niya nasabi because of a personal reason?" sagot niya napabuntong hininga ako "Maybe because of pride or fear, baka may ibang dahilan" dagdag niya

"I don't need to know all the details about it, He abandoned me and mom, he is heartless! Kung mahal niya kami sana nung una pa lang hindi niya kami iniwan" saad ko

"Sinabi mo sa akin noon na tanggap mo na wala kang ama, but I can feel that you're still hurting, naghahanap ka pa rin ng kasagutan kung bakit hindi pinanagutan ang mom mo, I suggest you to see him and talk with him, you deserve to know his side, pwede kang masaktan sa malalaman mo pero pwede ka ring makatulong yun sayo" sabi niya

Seulgi's right hindi ko kayang harapin ang ama ko, kinain na ako ng galit dahil sa pag-iwan niya sa amin

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Nasa loob kami ng studio ni Seulgi, nakaupo at pinagmamasdan namin ang 6ft size na painting niya, it was an abstract at nakasandal ito sa pader ng kanyang studio

"Babe bat hindi mo sinama yan sa exhibit mo?" tanong ko

"Hindi pa kasi tapos, in that painting I'm collecting all kinds of my emotions nakapaloob na jan ang anger, hatred, pain, and loneliness ,happiness na lang siguro yung kulang para mabuo yan" nakangiti niyang sabi sa akin

"You're not happy kaya hindi mo yan natapos?" napakunot ang noo ko

"I was happy but I just need this certain kind of happiness" humiga siya sa balikat ko

"What is that certain kind of happiness?" niyakap ko siya

"The happiness that comes from a passionate embrace and sweet kiss" nakangiti niyang sabi

"I can very well provide that certain kind of happiness" nginitian ko siya ng pilyo

Natawa siya at pinahid niya sa pisngi ko yung pintura na nasa gilid niya

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Seulgi's POV

Pinagmasdan ko ang mukha Jimin, I never felt happy ,tama nga siya he can provide the kind of happiness na hinahanap ko buong buhay ko, yung makukumpleto lang ang kaligayahan ko kung mamahalin niya ako, loving him was happiness and loneliness combined, knowing he didn't love me

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(back to Jimin's POV)

I dipped my finger in the can of paint she was holding pinahid ko rin yun sa mukha niya hanggang sa nagnagsalitan na kami sa pagpupunas ng pintura sa mukha ng isa't isa, nagpuno ng tawa namin yung studio ni Seulgi

Namalayan kong hindi na kami tumatawa, nakatitig na lang kami sa isa't isa magkadikit ang katawan namin nakapulupot ang kamay ko sa bewang niya, she wrap her arms around my nape and I looked at her saying that I love her so much gusto kong sabihin kung gaano ko siya kamahal pero natatakot akong wakasan niya ulit yung unconventional relationship namin na kakasimula lang ulit

I'll make her happy

I'll make her fall in love with me

I smiled and claim her lips, naging mapusok ang halik namin sa isa't isa it turn hotter and hotter every second, my kiss went down to her neck and trailed wet kisses down the hollow of her boobs, I just remembered nung doon kami nahinto 5 years ago

I wanted her, hindi na ako nakapagpigil, I took off her shirt and got rid of mine, soon i was exploring her body with my hands and mouth

The next thing was we where lying on the floor and i was on top of her

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Seulgi's POV

Itinapon ko ang laman ng maliit na lata ng pintura sa 6ft canvas, I can't help but smile habang pinagmamasdan ko ang ipininta ko, then I looked at Jimin, nasa sahig pa rin at natutulog, my clothes are still on the floor, tanging yung oversized shirt lang ni Jimin ang isunuot ko di na ako nag-abala sa pagsusuot ng underwear,  nakakaramdam pa rin ako ng sakit sa gitna ng pagkatao ko, it was a painful kind of happiness tho haha, i get up at pinagpatuloy ko ang pagpinta

Making love with him was a kind of happiness that involves love but in order to complete those emotion I needed, I needed to be loved by him

I wanted to asked him about Mina, kaya lang natatakot ako, natatakot akong malaman na mahal niya pa rin ito

Bumuntong hininga na lang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagpipinta

Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal sa pagpipinta at naramdaman ko may biglang yumakap sa akin mula sa likod

"Are you done with that" he lean his head on my shoulder

"Mmm not yet" nakangiti kong sabi

"Maybe you need more happiness" napatili ako nang bigla niya akong pangkuhin at dinala niya ako sa shower and yeah we made love under the shower

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Sorry talaga yung Sunday naging Monday na 😞

Wala talaga akong maisip na itype tsaka may tinatapos ako na thesis hahahahaha wala pa akong maayos na tulog

kung gusto nyo mabasa yung full version ng BS ni Jimin at Seulgi sa chapter na to tignan nyo na lang sa SeulMin SMUT ko na book hahahahaha kaso itytype ko pa yun mamaya

thank you sa pag-hihintay

Good day 😊