Think Again (Camren)

Trying To Erase You

Sofia Cabello's Point Of View

I heard the front door slam and immediately ran towards the sound. I stopped as I seen frozen tear marks on her face. "Mila?"

She just looked at me and shook her head, taking off her coat and boots before walking past me. Throwing her hockey gear into the closet, she slammed that door too. I cringed as it popped back open. I closed the door softly before following her up the stairs.

"Camila?" I tried again. "I made some cupcakes. Your favorite..." I smiled as she just stood there, staring at me. "What's wrong?" I asked, stepping forward.

"Go away." Camila bitterly spat and closed her bedroom door in my face. Now that was uncalled for.

"What happened?" I asked through the door. "Kyla called. She wants to know if you want to catch a late movie?"

"Get lost." Came the loud reply.

"No!" I turned the handle and to my surprise, it wasn't locked. My older sister annoyed me sometimes. She had major mood swings when something was wrong. Part of the reason we never got along to begin with. "Talk to me, Kaki, please?"

"I have nothing to say anymore!" Camila screamed and pushed me out of her bedroom while slamming the door once again. I snarled and kicked the door before grabbing my cell phone and looking for a certain contact.

She was the reason my sister was back to being mean. She was also the main reason Camila and I started to talk in the first place. I wanted to hate Lauren, I really did. But I couldn't because I knew that Camila was as much to blame with their situation as she was. It still made me angry that Lauren wasn't talking to Camila. Plus, she wasn't a bad person. She was genuinely sweet and took time out to get to know me.

I opened my text window and felt my face tighten. Things better go back to the new normal because if I lose my big sister, I'd be alone again. I hated to be alone.

What happened?! Camila's not talking to anyone! Fix it. Now.

I snapped my phone shut and shook my head as Camila's music blared through her bedroom walls.

With Ben back at school and our parents out of town for the evening, it was going to be a long night if Camila didn't talk to me about her feelings.

Don't get me wrong, I knew that Camila's relationship with Lauren behind Austin's back was wrong. But I also knew exactly how happy Lauren made my sister. Austin was a sweet guy, really. I feel sorry for him.

However, I was a total Camren supporter. I wanted them together.

I sighed and made my way downstairs, waiting for a bit until I felt it was safe to try and talk to Camila again.

Maybe that was exactly the reason why I tried to be a wallflower with my friends and family.

I hated caring so much.

- - - -

Camila Cabello's Point Of View

I was so tired of the 'come here, go away' trips that Lauren and I found ourselves in. I was so tired of crying over a girl who didn't seem to want anything to do with me. I was tired of living a lie and dragging Austin in with it. He didn't deserve it.

I had a long hot shower, trying to erase everything away that was Lauren. I scrubbed every patch of skin her lips or fingers traced on me. I tried to forget the way her fingers felt, the way her lips felt, her looks and words. I squeezed my eyes shut and willed it all gone.

It didn't work.

Lauren was in me forever. Every pattern she drew on my skin as we kissed and caressed. Every sweet word she whispered in the middle of the night before sneaking back out. Every single smile she'd give me when I complimented her.

Things were perfect for a while there. It was just Lauren and me. We were happy.

I was happy.

Stepping out of the water, I didn't even bother to look at myself in the mirror. My hair would dry and it'd turn slightly wavy as always. I changed into my gym pants and my old cut up hockey jersey and sat on the bed, turning on the TV.

Toronto Maple Leafs against Buffalo Sabres.

Now that was what I was talking about. A good old hockey game to keep my adrenaline pumping. If it were a warm night in the spring or summer, I'd be running to get all my thoughts out. Bit it was too cold. In fact, Christmas was approaching fast.

I muted the TV and turned my music up while I started on some homework. I'd hate to see my grades drop over some girl.

I tried my best just ignore it now that I was home. As long as no one bothered me, I knew I could face the day after with a fake smile and a huge apology to my sister.

Sweet Sofi didn't deserve to be barked at like that. I really was an ass when it came to her, wasn't I? Or at least, that's how I used to be.

First, I'd finish my homework and then find Sofi to apologize.

Secondly, I wouldn't dream of Lauren.

Thirdly, I'll find the right time to tell Austin that I just couldn't do it with him anymore.

And lastly, I wouldn't dream of Lauren.