You'll Be the Death of Me

Are You Ready?

The next morning I wake up with the sunshine blinding me. How can it be such a tragic but beautiful day? Today we were going to bury someone. Someone we killed. This will forever live in my conscience. I get up and walk to my closet to put on some shorts and a white t-shirt. 

We were only going to go "camping" for a day at the most so I didn't pack much more than an extra outfit.  I pile my hair up in a messy bun, grab my backpack and head out of the house. Jamie and I could go out to eat somewhere. 

I shout out to my parents that I'm leaving and walk out the door. My parents only semi cared what happened to me so it was easy to be outgoing. Or a street kid. Whichever one. 

I pull out my phone and text Jamie to meet me at the park then gather all my courage and walk to my possible doom. 

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As I wait for Jamie to arrive I scroll through my twitter. " Has anyone heard from Shay lately?" One of Shay's friends had tweeted out. I frown and exit out of it. People were starting to notice. We didn't have much time left. I look up as Jamie walks towards me. 

I get up and follow him to his car. I still hadn't forgotten about last night, but I didn't want to dwell on it. I'm afraid things might be different between us if I do. Jamie's my best friend and I can't risk losing him. Sometimes I forget the consequences of my actions. Exhibit A: the dead body in Jamie's trunk. My god what has happened to my life? As soon as Jamie gets in the car I speak up.

"Jamie, we need to talk." I say. He turns to me and nods with a smile. His right dimple showing. I loved Jamie's smile, so genuine..so innocent. 

" I saw one of Shay's friend posted about her this morning. People are starting to notice Jamie. What are we going to do if they figure it out?" I ask instead. Although it wasn't what I was going to tell him, it still worried me just as much. His face contorts as it always does when I bring this up. 

" They won't. And if they do, we're in this together no matter what." He tells me with a pointed look. I nod. There was some truth in that. But just like everything else, there was some falsity in it as well. I know Jamie will claim guilty if it means saving me from getting harmed or going to jail. He touches my jaw with finger and turns my face to his. 

He starts to lean in for a kiss but I back away. He looks hurt but if we continue this any longer we will both turn out hurting. It will never work out right between us. He turns to the steering wheel and starts the car. 

" Are you ready?" I ask him. He nods. I grab his hand and interlock our fingers. 

" Neither am I." I say.