Hold on till may. (sequel to hell above me Mike Fuentes)

chapter 8

*Amy's POV*

They told me she didn't make it and you could hear my heart break. She got stuck on my pelvis bone and before they could save her she suffocated. My beautiful Lillyaunna is being burried today. All dressed in black Danny, Mike and I head to the church with heavy hearts. Mourning the death of our child that I carried for nine months only to be told she didn't make it.

Its been a week since she died and the pain is unbearable. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and has a piece missing. Mike is a mess, he can't cope. He's been so distant ever since I Came home from the hospital. But I understand, it's hard to lose a child. I spend every second of the day with Danny now because losing Lilly made me want to spend as much time with him as I can.

The limo pulls up in front of the church. I get out and Danny follows me. I grab his hand and Mike grabs mine as we walk in. Everyone turns and looks at us with sadness and pity in their eyes. I hang my head low, I can't stand their looks. I can't even look up to where my baby lies in a casket made of black wood. I know that if I do I will lose it. But despite my fear I lift my head and at the end of the aisle there is a tiny casket where my baby girl lies.

As we approach I can see her little body, laying in a blue baby dress that Sammi and I bought for her. Tears well up in my eyes as I walk to the casket and look down upon my baby. The tears are flowing out my eyes and my throat feels like someone is choking me, I begin to make sobbing noises and Sammi rushes to me and engulfs me in a hug. I can barely hear her soothing Me over my cries. I'm wailing. My knees give out and I fall to the ground, Sammi ends up falling with me.

"Why my baby?! why! I did everything right! why did she have to die!?" I scream through sobs.

*Mikes POV*

I'm sitting with Danny, spacing out thinking about when I'm going to tell Amy when I hear her screaming. I look up in time to see her fall to the floor taking Sammi with her. I put Danny on Vic's lap and run to my wife. I take her from Sammi and just hold her.

"why Mike? what did we do to deserve this?" she says between sobs. Tears well up in my eyes, and before I know it my eyes are like waterfalls.

"I don't know baby, I don't know. But I'm here to help you though this. She was our baby girl. You're not in this alone baby. I promise. I love you so much." I say between sobs. By now everyone is looking at us.

I finally get her some what calm,so I help her up and basically carry her to out seats. she sits between me and Vic and Danny sits on Vic's lap. The ceremony begins and before I know it I'm being called up to say something, Amy doesn't know I'm doing this so she looks at me with sorrow in her eyes and shock on her face. I slowly untangle myself from her and walk up to the podium. I pull out my neatly written speech.

"Good morning everyone." I say looking at all my friends and family sitting here crying and tears well up in my eyes.

"Today we come here to mourn the loss of my baby girl, Lillyaunna. I didn't get the chance to hold my baby. But deep down I know she would have been just like her mother. W-when the doctor told me she didn't make it my heart shattered. But I knew I couldn't fall apart because I needed to be here for Amy. I love my baby girl. She's in heaven now and one day Amy and I will be with her. Rest In Peace sunshine." I say through tears. I fold up my speech and place it back in my coat pocket. I start to walk back to Amy and before I could get to her she get up and jumps into my arms.

" That was so beautiful Mike!" She says though tears.

"I had to say something for my princess." I reply.

Amy, Vic, Danny, Tony, Jamie, and I get into the limo and we head to the cemetery. The limo pulls up in front of a beautiful tree. (A/N I forgot when she got preggo so its like May.) The flowers around it are in bloom making the cemetery seem more peaceful rather than gloomy.

We all take our seats in front of the casket and the priest says a verse from the Bible. We all take turns laying a white rose on the casket. Then everyone but me and Amy leaves. We stand with her leaning on me,both of us are crying, as we watch them carefully lower our baby girl into the cold hard ground. As we stand and say our final good byes, something tells me she's still here with us. We both walk back to the limo hand in hand.

*Amy's POV*

As we climb into the limo I mentally say goodbye to my baby. The cemetery is so peaceful, not what I expected. I expected it to be gloomy. But with a grief stricken heart,anything that'd beautiful and peaceful still has a hint of gloom. We all head home in silence, And something tells me she's still here.

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I know this is a very gloomy chapter, I cried writing it, its so sad. dont hate me for making Lilly not survive, I promise there's a method to my madness.

I love you all!

xxAmanda