Her Insecurities🤧

"Middle school years"

(Btw Ky'la's 12 now, Hop's 14, Jason's 10, Lolo's 10 and Neil was 3

Ky'la's Pov

Here we go moving again...So tired of moving &'leaving every time I make friends or hope, Jason, Lolo and Neil do....It's so hard for me to make friends especially if all I hear is She's so ugly or Look how weird she is , oh she's adopted her mother doesn't love her..

Gosh I hated how easily they judged me...not ever really knowing a thing about me or where I've came from..How when I was younger I thought about just really ending everything before my eyes...I may not be loved by my father:The first male to ever break my heart in a way that no man I would've dreamt too but I was loved by others..My siblings, my grandma who gave up her life even tho she raised all six of her children but still choose too raise all five of us...

Did they ever think maybe we should know her instead of classifying her as something she's not?

Jai:Kyla &"Hope get up.. Its time to get ready for your new school..

Them:Okay grandma

*Dressed and already in the car along with the brothers and grandfather*

Ky'la:why do you have to keep moving ?

Jai:because we're trying to find a better environment for you guys to grow up in...To give y'all hope that no matter what we did in the past you'll have a bright future

Ky'la's thoughts
Maybe no matter what pain I've been through or who doesn't love me.. I'll make it to where I want to be

Where one day people will no judge what they don't understand

Where they won't judge something thats already

Someone's who's already lost all hope for ever finding unconditional love

someone's who's just given up

given up on life

*They arrive at the school*

Ky'la: Henry D. Perry middle school ? ...I've never heard of this school

jai: exactly a fresh start

Ky'la: Maybe this start will be better...especially since this is where I'll be spending the next three years

Hope: I think it will be

*They walk into the office...The girls our waiting for their schedules*

As Ky'la looks at her big sister with a feeling of emptiness as she leaves by her side to go to her class she realized this is her chance to actually break out of her shell...

As they approached Ky'la's class she took one deep breather and thought it's middle school might as well try something new since I'll be here for the next three years

*As she enter her class looked at the students how they just they laughed and joke in a harmonized way together hopping that she could finally experience what they felt at that very moment *

Slowly but confidently she walked in the door with a little sway at her hips she didn't know how she did it but it just felt like her hips moved in sync with her walk....

As she opened the door the class became quiet as the security guard announced that she was a new student and new to her current environment...

The small old but gentle lady in front of the class smiled so soft at her that for the first time she smiled the brightest smile without any worries even if it was just for a brief moment her heart flutter with the smallest tingle...She introduced her self as Miss.Mcdough she told Ky'la to sit at the table with all the girls and they looked at the seat she was seated too sit at...

Ky'la's Thoughts

As I sat down I realized that my heartbeat was the thumping harder than the beat of music sound waves...While I put my bag down I looked around and noticed al eyes were on me watching for my next move like a predator stalking it's prey.... As I looked down at my clothes I thought I looked so out of place just like I wasn't made to fit in ...

As Ky'la held her head down she all of a sudden heard a small but Angel like voice..

Sabrina: Hi I'm Sabrina

the girl beside her introduced her self as shay or at least that's what they called her for short and then the other girls joined in all welcoming me with a smile and for the second time since I walked in I smiled but this time it came with a little hearty giggle which they all laughed at...

*Talking &' getting to know each other than we all turned her heads toward the opposite table which sat with a group of boys then one boy turned to Ky'la and asked what was her name it that he's was Christopher but he preferred Chris*

As Ky'la looked at him she thought she never seen somebody with such a skin tone of the most mouth watering chocolate bar she's ever seen....Somehow she knew this beautiful even edible male would be the source to all her troubles but also the main reason for it to.......