Her Insecurities🤧

"How it all started"

Ky'la's pov

At only 7 years old I always wonder how come me and my mother don't look that much alike or how come my sister always called him frank" or sir.. wasn't he our father ? Wasn't he the man that made us ? Wasn't he destined to love us forever ?

At such a young age I wondered about a lot of things.. even if I wasn't meant to find out those things

One day I was being an annoying little sister as usual to hope as always until I heard Mama or who I thought was her on the phone with a deep sigh I heard her say to the person on the phone Marisa I can't keep lying to the girls knowing deep down me and frank are just not they"re real parents..Beause in the end all it will do is hurt them

Person on the phone:Mother I know but what am I to do when hope's father past away she's older enough to take it but is Ky'la really old enough to face the fact that her father's doesn't want to be in her life? That he honestly doesn't even want to think of the thought that she's his?

Jai:Well marisa Eventually I"ll have to tell them and you'll have to explain to the girls that you love them you just wasn't ready to be a mother with you in trouble with the law or in the streets ...You just didn't really have time for them but how will you think they feel when they found out that they have a sibling on the way who they'll probably never see?

Marisa:Mama I don't have all the answers right now but trust me I will when its time but look I have to go

Ky'la"s Thoughts

How could "mama" or who ever she was just lie to me and hope?

Did her &' This Marisa person ever think about how we would've felt?

All the questions we would have?

Or how the man that I loved and grew to love wasn't actually the man that was destined to love us?

How could my real father not want to be my father?

Was I that much of embarrassment to him?

Staring into space thinking these thoughts I didn't have no time to even move from the door or to even realize she was done with her phone call

Jai:Ky'la ? Ky'la ? Girl I know you hear me

Ky'la: yes?

Jai: Were you standing here the whole time?

Ky'la: umm...yes...

Jai: Well I guess it's time that I really tell you guys no matter what the person I was on the phone with said you and hope can handle this

Jai: Hope come here sweetie

Hope: coming mama

*Hope enters the room along with frank*

Jai: Girls we haven't been honest with you guys

Hope:What do you mean mama?

Jai: Well for starters baby I'm not you're real mama I'm your grandma and frank's not your father but my boyfriend

Hope:Well then where's our real parents?

Frank:Me &' your granma took you girls in because you're mother was young and still is trying to find answers on what to do...She's also going through some things which we will eventually yall but just not now...

Jai: &' Well Hope your Father passed away shortly after you were born and his death took a hold on your mother she started doing things she wasn't proud of...leaving you with me all the time or your uncles until she really thought that she isn't in a position to raise to beautiful little girls at least not yet

Frank:Ky'la are you okay?This whole time you haven't said not one word or even asked a question...Do you understand everything that has happened ?

Kyla:I'm fine ....can I be excused?

Jai:of course sweetie.. just know that we will be here in case you wanna talk about..

*Ky'la gets up and goes in her room*

Ky'la's thoughts

Maybe the pain that I feel will all just go away if I just let go

Maybe if I let go this life go

Maybe if I put an end to this at this moment

Just maybe I won't have to feel this hurt ever again if I just end this

Ending my life before it even has a chance to start

Being loved to being unloved

Was it ever really love or was it just false love?

Pain maybe is meant for me