Please, do forgive me for being extremely late. I have been so tied up in band and church...and friends and stuff...
I honestly have changed a lot these past six months. I got really down yesterday...I called my friend, J***, and Br*****. (Did that for safety terms)
I was walking and thinking...and I kept walking, and walking, and walking...
Was I still walking...?
It was like and hour or two later that I called my friend J***, and tried to talk to him and crying. I don't remember our conversation. Then, I realised I was lost.
Literally lost. I had to get off the phone with J***, so I turned around and just retraced my steps. I got super scared so I called my friend in Florida, Br*****. I called twice and when he answered the second time...I all the sudden had calmness, even though these random small dogs were chasing me and tried to eat my ankles...I finally found my road...and I ran to it and I was like on the phone, "I FOUND MY ROAD IM GUNNA MAKE IT HOME!" and he said,"I knew you could do it ^.^"
Keep in mind, the reason I was lost was because my head literally floated off...I was alone with my thoughts...
My nebulas, I literally couldn't think, yet I was hearing and saying everything.
Later that night, when I got home I texted both of those guys and told them, "I'm okay!"
We had a group, "Answers to Genesis" and they were amazing and telling us where Dinosaurs were mentioned in the Bible, learning about the Ark, and etc., I went to that and no one even noticed I was less chipper than usual...but I enjoyed running around in my socks! ^.^ literally no one cared and the people that noticed were like, "I like your socks!"
"THANKS THEY ARE ACTUALLY NOT MINE ^>^"
My feet hurt and I Facetimed my friend...Be****. We had a good long talk, and I told her, "My mom told me that people look up to me, I told her that no...I am worthless and-"
"Okay, Rachel. Before you even continue, I am going to tell you right now. If you were worthless, you wouldn't be here. I would not have met you."
I was just told that, and it struck me. I don't really care to hear "RACHEL YOU'RE AMAZING"
"I LOVE YOU RACHEL"
"If you say one bad thing about you I will punch you in the face."
I am more of the sentimental type, so I treasure things that actually mean something. Things that are short like "You're amazing," or, "I love you", they don't really mean anything. And the punch you thing makes me feel stupid so I don't care to hear that either. I know those things get told to people with good intentions, but... it is really the extravagant thinking that puts a lot of positivity in the air. I realised that God does not make worthless people. Yes, if I was worthless I would not be here. God doesn't waste time, matter of fact, if we humans were worthless, then Jesus dying on the cross was worthless. Heaven would be worthless. I am pretty confident in knowing that we all have a life for a reason. Do not for the love of anything or everything that you love and care for, waste this precious gift that we call life. That is coming from a very blessed person who has amazing people that love her. I love people, so I am here for anyone who needs an ear. I promise. Love this gift, because everything that you go through shapes you to be a stronger person!
~<3 Rache.
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