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Laughter

This is turning into more of a rant book that my life story but who cares. 

So you know how I mentioned me not having any self-confidence or self-worth, well that doesn't help in situations in which I do a stupid thing or if I make a mistake. When I am low on sleep, or even ALIVE, I make a lot of stupid mistakes and people laugh and I laugh.... but no one really knows what's really happening. Physically I smile and laugh, only to hide that I am stabbing myself over and over with a fictitious knife until I cry. 

This all happens in a span of two seconds. This all started in sixth grade after the "Fateful Day". 

Now don't get me wrong I am not a fun hater, a fun ruiner and fun destroyer, but not a fun hater. Its just when I am the center of the laughter do I go stiff and black out. I feel as if whoever is laughing is breaking off pieces of me and my self-worth to watch me crumble. That's not the case, though, and I know that but it doesn't matter I can't STOP thinking about it.

I bring this up now because of my step dad. He is one of the people who laughs at my stupidity and whenever I say something wrong or he doesn't think is correct. It's an annoying way to correct me and it makes me saltier than the popcorn at the bottom of the bucket. And I've told him I don't like it but he doesn't stop. 

That said I don't hate laughing, well I hate laughing myself since mine sounds like a dying chipmunk dolphin squirrel, but I don't care about people laughing at jokes. But if you know me....... Now you KNOW

Please be weary about how people feel and stop if they tell you to stop. It might feel stupid but listen and respect that person, you never know what the story could be.

Comment down below what makes you uncomfortable! Get it off your chest and don't be afraid to tell someone how you feel about said thing!!!!!!