My Sunshine • Swap!Sans X Depressed!Reader • (DISCONTINUED)

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"You are my sunshine..." "my only sunshine."

"You make me happy when skies are gray..."

"You'll never know dear how much I love you..."

"Please don't take my sunshine away..."

"Haha..." I chuckled to myself, wiping the tears from my face. My mother always sung that to get me to sleep when I had nightmares. She had a beautiful voice.

Now that she's...

...

Man, life is shitty.

And what's worse is that my father is a drunk bastard. He always hits me with his belt or anything he could get a hold of whenever I wouldn't do something right. Or if I would get in trouble at school. Anything I do, really. And I hated it. I wish he would just stop and let me be. It wasn't my fault that the teachers wouldn't give me a make-up test. It wasn't my fault that Algebra was so hard to understand while everyone was shouting and playing VainGlory on their phones without earphones. It wasn't my fault...

Wasn't it?

My friends are all gone. Some have gone away to the city. Some just thought I was too... dangerous to be around. Some turned out to be backstabbers.

Even Austin. My best friend.

And do you know why?

Because I'm suicidal. I have depression. There are cuts all over my arms and legs and some haven't even healed yet. Every waking moment I want to die because I feel so pathetic and I feel that I'm just a giant waste of space.

...

There is nothing more to live for.

Heh.. That's what I always told myself. But I was too much of a coward to actually do it.

Mt. Ebott is just up ahead. The teachers told us about the monsters that lived under the mountain in history class. They said that whoever went into the mountain would be killed mercilessly by the monsters, as it was law.

... That was the day I cried infront of everyone.

I gripped the pendant I wore tightly.

Just a few more steps...

It's cold. The clouds in the sky are dark and thick. It's gonna rain soon.

I have to keep going. No turning back.

I feel the drops of rain on my skin. I wish I brought my hoodie. Atleast I have my backpack...

I take it off my shoulders and use it as a cover for my head, placing it above me.

It starts pouring. I run inside a nearby cave for shelter and possibly warmth.

It's very dark and damp. There seems to be a faraway smell of.. tea?

I cant see anything.

I keep walking forward.

Of course, I trip on a root. Great.

I'm falling for sure... but where's the ground? Well, I'm sure I'm gonna die from the fall soon. Goodbye worthless world. Thanks for nothing!

This is it.

The moving air around me feels amazing. For the first time in a long time, I'm smiling. Laughing even. I guess this is a good way to go right? Smiling and laughing like there's no tomorrow.

Then I meet the ground.

But.. where's the pain? Where is my end? The end of my suffering?

Well, wherever I landed is pretty soft like pillows.

I landed on my back, too. Good thing I didn't bring anything that could kill me if I landed flat ontop of it. Oh, wait. I have a pocket knife in my back pocket. Would be a shame if that fell out and stabbed me in the spinal cord.

I graze my hand across the floor. Flowers?

I flip over, laying on my stomach and brushing the (h/l) (h/c) hair infront of my face.

There are buttercups everywhere.

A hallway is seen in the distance.

"I guess I am dead." I sit up.

...

"I might aswell explore then."

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