My destroyer lifesaver (Jelena)

Dance with me

27.February. 2009

Silence fell the church , only the sound of cameras flashes and some faint sound of people sobbing and crying from happiness .. Thats not what i feel right now , i feel absolutely upset yet ashamed

"Do you take her as a wife for you?" Asked the priest loudly enough so all the ball can here

"I.."

"No!" All head turned to me shocked , i panicked , i didn't mean to say it out loud , i looked over at my dad and his eye met mine who's face felled with loss and yet pain , i looked away fast and apolozied

"I am so sorry I .. I meant something else " my eyes were focused at the bouquet of flowers in my hand that i despise , who would choose grey glittery flowers for there wedding , exactly no one

I let out a breath in relief that the eyes were focused on me are now focused on dad and soon-to-be wife , i can't tell you that i hate her in fact she wasn't but a sweetheart to me , but still he is my father and let me tell you i'm so close with him , like he is my best friend , and to be honest yes ..

.. i'm kinda jealous of her

"May i ask you again Ricardo Gomez , do you take Rachael monroe as a wife for you" the priest repeated

"I do" my dad said and my heart sink at his words , he said it fast, so fast its like he is making it clear that he really wanted to marry her

"i may present you now a husband and wife , you may kiss the bride " i looked up to see this precious moment , notice my sarcasm

Rachael smiled shyly and my dad didn't hesitate as he leaned to her and kissed her

Claps and cheers fell the place and i felt like i was about to faint , all of this is happening so slow

Its like my head choose this practically time to bring all the memories of me and dad sitting with each other watching TV or playing in the garden or the way he would tell me that i'm his everything and kiss me goodnight

I was his everything and now she will be his everything , and he will forget about me , i'm so heartbroken right now.

"Are you okay?" My older sister Edent whispered leaning towards me , i nod assuring her , she gave me a sympathetic smile and nod back

after 10 minutes after we all ride our cars from the church and go back to our condo or should I say mansion my house is quite big have a massive yard with a wide pool and a jacuzzi by its side , which have a little waterfall theme and its so beautiful in the morning and even in the night when the little spotlights around them gives them a faint light and its just looks so fancy yet extraordinary , we are the only family who mad their home like this in the neighborhood cause my father always wanted to be special and have something different than others , and he and mom build it together like they didn't buy it like this , they chose everything with each other even the pool theme the rooms the kitchen even the roof , its a closed kind of roof there's outside and inside

In the inside there is another big Jacuzzi and infrot of it there's a big LCD glued to the wall so you can watch while taking a bath

and beside it is a king side bed and there is a bathroom too and a pool table in the corner and a bar which my dad never lets me go near it cause its filled with champaign and beer and it's still illegal for me to drink

outside they put a huge white leather coach sticked to the wall and in the other corner beside it there's a big white floral swing and a infront of them a round black table which i love to come in the morning and have my breakfast in with my dad , i can imagine that now he will no longer have breakfast with me , it is going be her