I'm all yours if you're all mine

Chapter-25: Everything Will be Fine.

He seem lost by my answer. I think he didn't expect that was going to be my answer. But it's truth. The thing that I'm most afraid of is 'Love.' I will go in cage of hungry lion without any hesitation if it means saving myself from this thing.

"Huh..." he shuttered. Opening and closing his mouth like a fish but nothing come out of his mouth. It look like he don't know what to say, How to reply to my answer. I like it when I leave other people speechless.

He clear his throat and get ready to say something but I cut him off. I don't need him to interrogate me and being his usual nosy self I know he will ask or say something to tell him the reason behind it.

"What is your best childhood memory?" I think he got the hint that I'm diverting the topic and he let me for which I was grateful.

And we asked question to each other. Some silly, some meaningful but all in all my motive to free my mind from the thing for a while fulfilled.

After finishing with the game we found ourselves sitting on the couch like lazy potato and changing channel from channel on TV not deciding upon what we what to watch.

I was sitting in Indian style with one couch pillow was on my lap and my eyes on TV but not registering anything what was going on. My mind is on how to find a way out of this tumor situation.

"What do you know about brain tumor?" I hear myself asking.

"Huh?" he question. I found him lost in some cartoon show that he watching. How he got there don't ask because I don't know myself.

"Do you know anything about brain tumor?" I asked again.

"Not much. Just that it is some type of brain cancer and it is very difficult for a person to come out of it unharmed. If someone is lucky enough than they can make it." He answered thoughtfully. "Why do you ask?" he enquired.

But I was lost in what he said. "Lucky enough." My Dad is lucky enough to make it till the end. I know he will after all we are with him. We will help him, be there for him whether he need us or not. I will become his support system.

When the thought of something bad happening come into my mind at the same time the burning sensation in my eyes return. I push back all the negative thought and tears back. There is no place of them my life. I simply not allowed them in my life. Negative thoughts and tears.

"Amelia." He called me out and put a hand on my shoulder. I turn to him and when I look into his enchanting blue eyes I found myself lost into them. I can look into them for days, months even years. When I glance into them it feel like I'm drowning into them and they are pulling me into them.

Like they will protect me. Upon drowning in them it feel like I will finally able to breathe. Like until now I was not breathing at all. Like upon drowning I will find a life that I was not able to find without inhaling that water that is his eyes.

He cup my face and effortlessly pulled me out before I get lost into that endless sea of his eyes.

"You know that you can tell me anything if you want. You can trust me." He cooed me. Don't know why my heart was saying that you can trust him. I don't trust people easily hell I don't trust anyone beside my two friends, mom, dad and Marcus. Even they themselves do not know me completely.

But something in his eyes, in his presence, in his voice, in his expression tell me I CAN trust him. That much that I want tell him everything about me even the thing I didn't tell anyone till now, which are buried in the deepest corner of my heart, my mind, my soul. But I stop myself maybe because of the past experience.