No Turning Back

The Big Day

I am going to do an Epilogue for this story then it will be finished :) it has taken almost 3 years for me to finish it's been a long road, thank you for bearing with me. much love x

Chapter 19: The big day

Tonight was my last dinner as an unmarried woman; I didn't really think about it until now, and now that I'm thinking about it I am so super nervous. We just got back from the rehersal at the church, our wedding party is kind of small just Sarah, Bianca, Michael's best friend Peter, and Jason. So Michael's parents had us all come back to the house for the rehersal dinner, it was a really laid back casual dinner; completely relaxing which is totally what I needed. But during dinner I got quieter and quieter, nobody else noticed though thankfully; they were all busy talking and visiting so I was left to my own thoughts, which ran far and wide. 'This has to be a dream' I thought 'there's no way someone as wonderful and amazing as Michael could ever love someone like me and actually want to marry a single young mother with a kid, guys like that just don't exsist, this all has to be some kind of wonderful horrible dream that I'll wake up from and realize I'm totally alone.' 

"Are you okay?" The question brought me out of my thoughts for a moment, I looked toward the voice I love so much, the voice so deep and warm, the voice of the man who will be my husband in less then a day. He knows me so well, yes of course he does in the dream they always do.

"No, not really" I replied

"What's wrong?"

"Are you a dream?" I asked

"Am I a what?"

"A dream, am I just dreaming? am I going to wake up just to see that I am totally and completely alone?"

He looked at me kind of shocked, wondering what in the world I'm talking about probably; it took him a bit before his face finally registered that he understood what I meant. He stood up; causing everyone else to stop talking they all looked at him expectantly "Sorry' he said 'I have to talk to Kelli right now, we'll be back" He held out his hand to me "Come on Kells, let's take a walk." I took his hand and stood up.

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We walked to the park in silence, not touching; just walking side by side. It wasn't a very long walk; so when we got there we slowed our pace. He was silent for a while and I really didn't want to speak because I was worried about what might come out, I mean seriously I just got done blurting out that I didn't think any of this was real and that I'd wake up and learn that I'm actually alone, sheesh you have to wonder what that would do to a male ego.

Finally he spoke quietly "I'm not a dream Kelli"

"Yeah I know" I said half heartedly

He stopped; grabbed me and swung me around so that I was facing him, the force; it took me by surprise I looked up at him and was surprised even more to see tears in his eyes; I opened my mouth to speak but he silenced me with a kiss full of need and urgency. "I...am...NOT...a...dream" he finally said again, "I love you' tears spilled out over his cheeks as he continued 'I've waited for you, and just the thought of you thinking that I'm just dream that you'll wake up to and find out your alone, that kills me. Your not alone Kelli, we're getting married tomorrow, that is no dream. I nodded, I was way to emotional to speak right now. "Do you believe me Kells?" He asked, he really wanted an answer, well yeah now I believe him; sheesh I got a grown man crying, now I feel real great. I can tell I've hurt him by what I told him, but he loves me. I nodded again this time finding my voice "Yes I believe you" I hugged him tightly; holding onto my lifeline "Michael I love you, I just feel like after all I've done; I dont deserve such a wonderful man like you."

"God is blessing us both with eachother; I don't deserve you but He's brought you into my life, you and Angie."

I nodded "God really has blessed me, I'm marrying an amazing man tomorrow and I have a beautiful baby girl"