(ON HOLD) 2. The Other Side of Love (Burned Down Series) (Liam Payne)

8. These four walls

(A/N Crying chapter ahead #GETTHETISSUES!!) 

Recap. Lilly POV.

* "Please Liam, please don't leave me. I need you." He shook his head, pulled his hand away and walked away again. I fell on my knees as I cried. "Please Liam!" My shouting became a whisper. 

"Please don't leave me..." *

Lilly POV.

I cried for awhile before I fell asleep. I woke up to people screaming. "I freaking found her on the roof, tear strained cheeks and she was freezing. Good boyfriend you are Liam!" Michael yelled. "I had to! She didn't want to come along and my friend needed me! He lost his freaking child!" I climbed out the bed and walked down the stairs before stopping behind a closed door listening to the boys. "She was crying there because she got replaced in Evita, she knocked her boyfriend into hospital and she saw Lilly slip and fall in the pool while she was there. She blamed herself for Little Lilly's death! And then her amazing boyfriend leaves her behind when she needed him. She's probably a wreck by now!" Michael told him and Liam stayed silent. "She saw Little Lilly fall?" Liam whispered. "Why do you think she couldn't handle going to the hospital? It kinda makes sense." I turned around and ran back up the stairs. I tripped and fell but quickly got up and ran on. I heard Liam call my name but I ignored him. I ran to my room and laid down in bed. I quickly pulled the duvet over my head when I heard that my door was opened. I felt the bed dip and Liam's arm was wrapped around my waist. "I'm sorry babe, I never meant to hurt you. I didn't know that all happened to you." He whispered. I turned around to look at him. "You couldn't have known, since you were knocked out." I looked at his bruise as I caressed it with my thumb. "Don't blame yourself for what happened babe, it was an accident. And accidents happen." He said, looking me straight in the eyes. I rested my head on his shoulder as he kissed my forehead. "Go to sleep love, I'll be here, right beside you." And I actually listened to him.

It's now a week later and today is Lilly's funeral. Eleanor is just devastated and Louis was looking like a zombie. Next to that there was a hurtful silence in the house. I looked in the mirror. I was wearing my black skinny jeans, a black blazer over a dark coloured shirt and my black sneakers. I looked at one of the many pictures on the side of the mirror. It was a picture of me with Liam and Lilly. I had been babysitting her that night and we had read toy story. She shared Liam's addiction. While reading the book she had fallen asleep on my chest. Liam had come home to sleep with me and found us like that, both asleep. He had just climbed in and had fallen asleep with his arm wrapped around me and Lilly. The morning after, Louis had snapped a picture of us, sleeping like that. Tears formed in my eyes as I touched the picture and smiled at the memory. "That's one of the best memories." Someone said behind me. I spun around finding Louis there. "You guys would be good parents." He walked past me, looking at the picture. "Not like me, being the worst parent in the world." I was shocked. He hadn't spoken in a week. "Lou, don't say that." He looked at me and sighed. " I do say that because it's true. Lilly died because I didn't look after her." “It’s also my fault. If I hadn’t knocked Liam down, you would’ve been playing with Lilly, instead of taking care of Liam.” He sighed and turned to look out the window. He looked so broken and it hurt me to see him like this. Normally he cheered everybody up, but now he needed someone to cheer him up. I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him from behind. “Everything will be alright Lou.” I said and I felt him shake. He turned around and pulled me close. He didn’t cry but he just hugged me tightly.  “I just miss her so much!” He said and I nodded. “We all do Louis, We all do.” “Lilly! You ready?” I heard someone knock on my door and Liam walked in. “Hey guys, it’s time to go.” He said, trying to smile a bit. I nodded and took hold of Liam’s hand. My arm was still wrapped around Louis’ waist as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder. I felt like crying but I tried to stay strong for Louis. We walked downstairs and when we went outside Louis went to Eleanor after giving me a kiss on my cheek. “Thanks Lilly.” Everybody got in the car and I was about to follow when something stopped me. I couldn’t go. “Love, are you coming?” Liam asked and I shook my head. “I can’t, I’ll break down. I’m not strong enough to take care of Louis and holding myself together. “ “I’ll take care of both of you, don’t worry darling. I love you.” He said before pecking my lips softly. “Love you too Liam.” We got into the limo and drove away. When we arrived at the cemetery, everybody got out and walked to the little chapel at the end. Eleanor and Louis went first with Perrie, Alice, Niall and Zayn. Behind them were Harry, Jesy, Josh, Jade, Leigh-Anne and Jordan. Liam and I stayed behind a bit. The girls, Louis and I walked inside, while the other six boys stayed outside, waiting for the pink hearse where Little Lilly’s coffin was in. We all sat down in the front row. I was sitting next to Louis and kept an empty seat on my other side for Liam. After us, a lot of people came in. I saw the boys of five seconds of summer, Mike and Lucy, Jay with Lottie and Fizzy & Eleanor’s parents. I saw Karen and Geoff with Ruth and Nicola and the parents of the other boys. I even saw Simon Cowell. Everybody sat down and that's when the doors opened and the boys walked in , with a little coffin in between them. Eleanor cried on Perrie's shoulder while Louis was just staring. I took his hand and gently squeezed his hand. The boys put the coffin down and took their spots. Liam sat down next to me, putting his arm around my shoulder so he could comfort both me and Louis if necessary. It was weird seeing that little coffin, knowing my god-child was in there. A priest came in and started to speak. "Dear family and friends, Louis, Eleanor. We are here today together to say goodbye to a little girl who died way to soon. Lilly William Tomlinson. Daughter of Louis Tomlinson and Eleanor Tomlinson-Calder. God child of Lilly Jackson and Liam Payne." I looked at Liam in shock. I didn't know that fact! "This sweet little girl was taken away from us at the age of three after a terrible accident." Louis' grip tightened on my hand. I rubbed my thumb on his hand and he immediately relaxed. "Little Lilly, as many of you called her, was loved by everyone who had the chance to meet her. She made everyone happy with just a little smile. I know a few people want to say a few words about her and I want to ask her dad to start." Louis looked at me, before getting up and walking to the coffin first. He rested his hand on it for a few seconds before going to the mic...