stutter {H.S}

chapter 4

Once I get to Harry's table I slowly sit down and take a deep breath and say "h-harry" he didn't look so I continue "I know y-you probably aren't listening but i-i don't know what i-i did t-to you..W-what happened to the Harry I m-met yesterday?" Harry speaks up and says "he's gone now if you don't mind I would like to get back to work so please take you and your stutter else where" I nod and let a couple tears slip and I say "i-i don't know w-what I did but o-okay" and I got up and he said "do you think in that stupid fawn really?" I give him a confused look and say "w-what?" He laughs and says "I know what you did! Why don't you just admit it?" I look at him and I say "w-what do you m-mean?" He slam's his pencil down and says "here let me tell you what you did since you want to act dumb" I let another tear slip out and I wipe it and he continues "Coby told me what you and him did, you slept with Coby and you said I meant nothing to you and I was a sensitive baby that needed to grow up" I look at Landon and he gets up and says "come here" I cry in his chest and he holds me and Landon says "mate I promise you she didn't do that" she laughs and says "why should I believe you, you probably slept with her as well for all I know" he laughs and says "don't you get it? Coby doesn't like fawn and you know that and he will try to do anything to ruin fawns life and that means her love life too and this has already happened to her once and besides fawn is a good girl and she's still a virgin so I don't need you spreading false information about her when she's already a wreck" I let go of Landon and I look at Harry I walk out of the art room and I hear "you messed up" and I go and sit in the hallway and just think about the situation and how it sucks. I see Harry slowly come out and walk my way and he says "fawn I'm sorry" I get up and walk away and he follows me and says "I know I deserve this but please forgive me" I look at him and say "Harry w-why should I? You t-took advice from C-Coby of all people y-you believe Coby" I shake him my head and I say "you know I would never say anything like that about you, you know I care about you Harry but you still believed him and if I hate him then why in the world would I sleep with him Harry?" He looks down "I don't know fawn I'm sorry I'm just really insecure" I laugh and say "so was i but I still didn't call you a slut and make fun of your problem" and with that I walk into the girls bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and I see all of my imperfections and how I'm not worth it at all. I carry a blade in my pocket, I know I have problems but sometimes they are just too much to handle. I look at the blade and I carefully place it on my forearm and I just stare at it. To be completely honest I've never cut before..I've always been to scared but now I don't care and I should just do it. I was about to cut my skin until Harry came in and took the blade out of my hand and grabbed my arm and I said "give me my blade back and get off of me now" he shook his head and said "no" I try to get out of his grip but he just held tighter and I say "ow Harry you're hurting me" and he loosens his grip and says "sorry" and I take my chance and I remove myself from his grip and was about to run out of the bathroom ue getntil he grabbed my arm and spun me back around and into his chest. He smelled like mint and vanilla, it was pure heaven but this is wrong..Isn't it? I still lay my head down on his best and close my eyes and I hear him whisper in my ear "baby I'm sorry, I was stupid and idiotic and I shouldn't of listened to him but when he told me you said that I felt so broken inside..Like I last a part of me and I'm sorry I really really hope you can forgive me" I look down and say "i-i'll have to think a-about it Harry" he lifted my chin up and smiled and said "Alright Princess" and kisses my forehead before walking out. And I just stand there with a smile on my face and it won't disappear...This love thing is sucking me in..