Story of My Life

Chapter 6

JAI'S P.O.V

"What the fuck is her problem." Luke said confused while reaching into the cooler for another beer.

"Shut up, I'm trying to fucking call her." I was in a panic. When she had left, she looked pretty shook up.

"No answer." I said heading down the park towards the exit.

"Whatever I'm going home. I'm not dealing with this bullshit." Luke slurred.

I didn't really expect Luke to care; he doesn't care about anything. He's become a whole new person lately.

When I turned onto her street I saw her going into her house and shutting the door quickly.

I scanned the driveway and the car was gone. Cindy was at work.

I quickly reached the door and stood there, debating whether or not to go after her. Soon after I snapped out of my thoughts and opened the door, running up the stairs to Ellie's room. As I was about to open the door, I heard quiet sobs.

My head got closer to the door and I leaned my ear against it. The crying got louder. I had had enough. I flung open the door to see a crying Ellie; holding blood-stained paper towels to her arms.

"O-Oh my god." I exclaimed. I was shocked; she seemed so happy, why would she do this to herself? My head began to spin and spin.

"I'm....sorry." She tried to say through sobs as I knelt down beside her.

I didn't answer, but I took the towel from her hands and held them to her arms.

We sat in silence as I cleaned up her arms. They were deep, but they didn't look fresh. They looked like they had just been torn open. My mind then flashed back to the park and how I grabbed her wrists tightly. I have heard of the fans doing it but I had never actually seen it happen to someone.

After a while the bleeding had stopped and I grabbed her arms, scanning them over. Only to see swollen red gashes covering them.

"Ellie," I finally spoke. "Why.."

She looked down at her lap and cried. "I don't know why. I'm just so fucking damaged and I guess I can't deal with it any other way. My like is fucked. I'm fucked. Everyone judged me for it and even my parents. Jai, I can't not do it. I went to long. Cindy knows I did it in the past but don't tell Cindy please!! She knows I had done it before but I-" She still had her head down, looking in her lap as she cried silently. I looked at her as my eyes welled up.

"Dont you ever fucking do this again. I fucking mean it. I can help you, the boys and I-"

"The boys can't know! Only you please. I promise I'll call you or text you if I do please." She cried harder and louder. She sounded desperate so I had to hug her.

"I promise not to tell them. I just hate seeing people sad El," I whispered.

We stayed in the hug for a while until my phone vibrated.

From Beau

C'mon man where are you?

From Skip

Holy fuck man. Luke came home hammered. Where are u?

"I gotta go. Stay safe tonight ok?" I said standing up and heading towards the door.

"Jai?" I heard as I turned around slightly.

"Thank you." Ellie said through teary eyes.

I nodded in return and walked out her room and down the stairs. The only thing going through my mind was Ellie.

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When I got home, the boys were in the kitchen talking so I just went upstairs. One of the boys tried to talk to me but I couldn't hear them, my mind was blocking everything out other than the Ellie situation.

I got to the top of the stairs and just sat there. My head was spinning still. My head was pounding.

"Jai?"

I turned back to see a concerned Beau standing behind me.

"You ok..?"

"Yeah,." Lies.

"No you're not." It's like he read my mind. "You're crying dude. What's up?" He asked with sympathy as he sat beside me.

"It's-" I began, but then I remembered what Ellie said; Don't tell the boys, please.

"It's," I started again, "I got a text from Ariana again." I lied unconvincingly

"Dude you're my brother, I can tell when you're lying. What's really the matter?" Beau stated.

I just sat in silence as my eyes started watering again. "Beau, I don't want to talk about it just forget it."

"C'mon Jai just-"

"I said to fucking forget it!" I yelled.

Beau just sat there, shocked at my actions. He cleared his throat and began to sit up.

"Sorry I bothered you." He said as he walked downstairs towards the boys.

As soon as Beau had left me alone on the stairs, I went to my room.

I opened the door to a drunk Luke passed out on the bottom bunk.

I sighed and climbed up to my top bunk. As I lay there, I put my earphones in and turned on my music, full volume. This was my solution to everything. Music had been the only thing supporting me the last couple months, which sucks.

Me, Luke and Beau used to be close and we never really fought as much as we did now. It fucking killed me when I found out about Luke's drinking but he doesn't seem to care anymore. He can't remember anything that happens because it had gotten so bad.

Maybe, I thought, maybe everything will go back to normal again.

(Ou cliffhanger(; haha sorry but I've been trying to make it longer because the last chapters had been a bit short. But please give me feedback and stuff to improve on because it would help me bunches!!)