Amaranthine ✿ | Ryden

I.

"I thought you didn't drink anymore."

"I don't"Spencer stated taking a sip another sip from his beer.He kindly smiled to the bartender before paying her and turned to face Brendon"but today is an exception."

"Spencer James Smith"Brendon replied acting slightly offended"just because I got divorce,it doesn't mean I will sleep with you."

Spencer just laughed at his reaction and pulled of an at-least-I-tried face.Brendon laughed too and continued drinking.In a way,Spencer was right for wanting to make Brendon forget.

Forget everything and everyone who hurt him.

After all,it wouldn't be the first time.

If Spencer had a dime for everytime he had to comfort Brendon after being abandoned,he would be rich.This was also one of the reasons why Brendon loved him so much.Every person in his life came and went but Spencer was the only one who had stayed until the bitter end.

"Bren"

"Yes?"

"It won't be like Ryan."Spencer just whispered.Brendon nodded despite him not believing it.Of course it would be like Ryan.Every relationship he had-sexual or not-ended up screwing him up in the same way Ryan had.

How come it all started and ended with that guy?

Brendon would never know.

"Do you think the fans will be angry at me?"

"What?"

"The fans."Brendon repeated even though he already knew the answer.Mad couldn't really describe the fans' feelings towards him as soon as they would find out about the divorce.

Again,as repeatitive as it sounds,Ryan popped to his mind.This was the first time that it happened.When Panic! had the first split,people blamed Brendon for both kicking out Ryan and Jon and for shutting them out later.

Which was ridiculous because Ryan chose to leave and chose to drag Jon with him.What was Brendon supposed to do after?Welcome them back with open arms and become their besties?

Anyway,the fans always blamed him for messying up.God forbid Brendon being the victim.Ryan and Jon leaving?Brendon kicked them out.Spencer leaves?Brendon must be unbearable.Dallon leaves?Wow,no one must be able to even stand Brendon.

Now he just waited for 'Brendon probably cheated on Sarah' to be added to the list.

"You keep checking the time."Brendon spoke noticing how Spencer was constantly glancing at his phone.He couldn't blame him though-Spencer wasn't his babysitter.He had a wife to spent time with and overall a bunch of important things he should be doing instead of being at a bar with Brendon.

"Stranger Things premiers."Spencer laughed innocently.

"You can go home Spenc,it's late enough."Spencer was about to argue but Brendon shushed him."I'm a big boy who can take care of himself.What's the worst that can happen?"

"A girl hooking up with you,getting you drunk,drive you to her place,then transforming to a tentacle monster"Spencer continued with a serious face"and then eating you."

"Aw so you do watch the music videos!"

"Yeah and I've began believing that you are indeed a member of Pete Wentz's cult."

"Excuse you but if anyone is a cult leader,it's me."Brendon replied offended and pointed at his forehead"This is where all my power comes from."

"Of course it does."Spencer laughed and gave him a hug before leaving.Brendon smiled and took another sip from his drink.He continued this silently getting drunk method for about an hour.

Drinking always eased the pain.

He continued until his head buzzed.Continued until his entire body felt numb.Everything had a limit but Brendon wanted to cross it very badly.

One and a half hours later,he had succeeded.

Then he felt a hand on his shoulder.The man turned around to face a boy-who made him question whether he was even old enough to be at a bar-looking at him with concern.He had curly brown hair and piercing blue eyes that slightly creeped him out.

Or perhaps it was the booze that made them look like the ones of the White Walkers.

"Are you okay?"he questioned with a thick-probably australian-accent.Brendon just laughed for some reason.He wasn't really aware of his next moves,he just let his heart do whatever it liked.

Besides,his mind had already fucked him up multiple times.How could his heart make it any worse?

"I'll take that as a no."the boy answered his own question.Suddenly Brendon felt as if he was loosing his balance but luckily the boy caught him before he passed out."God,this was an awful idea."

The rest was just a big blur for Brendon.

He heard voices talking and felt the boy's touch still on him.The last thing he saw before completely passing out was a girl with black hair-he could swear she had some white stripes though-approaching him.

She put something in his front pocket-which was by the way completely inappropriate-and turned to the boy holding him.

"We aren't being paid enough for this."the boy mumbled"Are you ready?"

And then it all went black.

A/n Oh my God,who were these people?Is everyone in the music industry part of a cult?What the actual hell is going on?