The Light [Kim Taehyung]

11. Reality

Continued; Taehyung POV

I sat beside my father's memorial and absently let my thoughts run. That night continued to replay in my mind again. Her words, her face, her expression, her smile.

Why the hell would you smile in such a situation?! Idiot.

The thoughts continued to torment me, as to why I hadn't stood up for my own crime. And why I hadn't protected her from all this.

I looked at my hands, and every time I did I saw red. The stains of my father's blood could still be seen on this ungrateful son's hands.

It still haunts me. Why I had done that, and what had driven me to do so.

I was afraid of myself and the actions I take when I was in such a state. This was something extremely daunting.

Though, sitting here next to my father's memorial would accomplish nothing. I decided to head back to that dreadful home and relinquish my thoughts.

And to hopefully calm down.

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As I stood in her room, I looked at every neat detail. She was always the type to cleanly put everything back.

Then my eyes travel towards a small white letter sitting on her dresser. Carefully, I open the sealed letter and in her small handwriting read:

Dear Taehyung,

It's not your fault so don't beat yourself up about it. To be frank it was my fault for keeping it from you. Remember when Dad went to the hospital that time due to stroke? It happened then. Dad had been diagnosed with prosopagnosia, so whenever we showed up he would go berserk. And that part was due to the alcohol intake. It was my fault for not telling you and keeping it from you. I didn't want you to worry and said to myself; "Big sis, will take care of it."

But I was wrong, Taehyung. I...it wasn't you who killed him. It was really me. If I had just told you then none of this would've happened. Dad would've been alive and together we could've found a solution. I don't want you blaming yourself; you did nothing wrong. It was all me.

I want to protect my precious brother. And this is the only way I only know how to. I'll be the one to end it all, so Taehyung. Promise me, you'll be healthy and happy okay?

So until then, live your life well. I don't want you beating yourself up anymore, okay? You've promised me, okay? I love you, Taehyung, my precious brother.

-Love, Kim Seulbi.

My hands lightly crinkle the paper and unknowingly my tears fall. She told me not to blame myself but it's all I'm doing right now.

I killed someone innocent, a sin that cannot repent itself with just being punished by years and years in prison. Yet I caused another innocent person to be punished with a crime they didn't commit.

The letter falls to the floor along with my knees crashing onto the floor and my hands covers my ears. The sound of my conscience kept blaming me. Along with that blame, my father's screams who suffered from something innate that could've been prevented.

My head hurts..

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Present; Author POV

"Taehyung.." You lightly patted his hand in attempt to comfort the sad boy.

"[Y/N] I'm so upset and confused. I don't know what I should do." He solemnly looks towards his fingers and shuffle his hands away from your touch. "I killed my father, who was completely innocent. And made my older sister take the blame."

"Stop." You signaled for him to cease the pessimistic replies, "Think about it, your sister didn't say you killed him. And she definitely didn't want you living like this." Taehyung stares into your eyes, his deep brown orbs seemed to water as you said this.

He smiles solemnly and looks down at his fingers, "Thanks [Y/N]. I'm glad that you're here with me."

"Yah look at me." You clicked your fingers at his downward gaze. He looks up teary eyed, "Smile."

Your hands perk your own cheeks up to form a smile of your own. Taehyung follows your gesture and ends up chuckling at your childlike behavior.

"There's the Taehyung I'm used to." You smiled at him happily and quickly used the opportunity to ask him one more time, "Let's go see the others okay? It's apparently a start of a new day so why not start anew?"

"But, they all don't know me. I'm a stranger." Taehyung looked down once again and you quickly grabbed his closed fist.

"We should go." You urged once again, then met his gaze, "Don't think you're a sinner or some shit because heck, everyone's a sinner."

He chuckles softly, "[Y/N] I wish that was the case."

"What do you mean you 'wish'. It is the case you dummy." You smile, and continued with your trail, "Everyone lies, deceive, and for what? For their own personal greed. All going against Christ's words right? I mean I'm not religious so I wouldn't know."

"Why are you even-" He covers his eyes momentarily with his free hand, then looks up at you with a smile plastered on his face, "I can't really go against you huh?"

You felt the corners of your lips curve into a broad smile and pulled him to his feet. Taehyung follows, and you feel his big warm hands grip tighter. Completely intertwined between his bigger fingers you feel your heart palpitate at its warmth and sense of comfort.

"Let's go." Your hand turns the knob, instead of revealing the beauty and warmth of the sun; a blinding flash of light glares your field of vision and when everything settled, a cold darkness greets you instead.

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A/N:

HELLO I AM BACK FROM THE DED.

filler/cliffhanging chapter? LOL.

Just so you all know I'm a major cliffhanger. Haha. I'm out here going for that major confusion that'll arise in your minds~

I HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER [?]

bye.

ごめん ネ. Love you so. 許して. I NEED U GIRL *insert rest of lyrics*

Stay lovely all~

-Sapphire