I Wanna Be- A Complicated Love Story

Chapter Nineteen

I hear the door move as Jordan unlocks the door and comes in, I put my headphones in and pretend to be jamming to some music. I sing along to let him know that I don't want to talk.

"Man, Aaliyah, we need to talk."

I sing louder to get him to leave me alone.

My headphone is snatched from my ear and there is an angry Jordan looking into my eyes.

I laugh and turn away, "Get out my face. I don't want to talk to you Jordan. Go talk to that bitch you been fucking."

Jordan grabs me and makes me face him, "There is no other bitch Aaliyah, I was talking to her, I won't lie. It's over now though, I love you and only you. Fuck all the other girls, you're the only girl that I need. The only one I want."

I swallow hard as he looks into my eyes, "You love me? Then why were you with that bitch?" I get up and walk away.

I gasp when I'm suddenly lifted up into the air. I laugh unable to stay mad at him, I just love this boy so much. "Put me downnnn!" I yell dramatically.

"Not until you give me another chance!" He yells as he lifts me up over his shoulder.

"Jordannnnn!" I yell as I playfully hit his back.

"Aaliyahhhhh! I'm sorry! I love you!" He yells back with a smile that is so big I can hear it in his voice.

I sigh loudly and dramatically say, "I love you too, Jordan."

"You promise?" says Jordan hesitantly as he puts me down off of his shoulder.

"Yes, I promise. I love you. I just hate the stupid shit that you did. You really hurt me Jordan."

There's a short pause and he gets up and walks in a circle scratching his head. He looks really upset.

Jordan turns to the wall, hiding his face from me and says: "I am so sorry Aaliyah. I ..." he gasps for air. "I never wanted to hurt you. I was stupid to mess around with that girl. It's just that I felt like a burden to you so I wanted to give you some space so you could do you for a while." Jordan gasps deeply again.

"Jordan, I didn't think of you as a burden, I was happy to take care of you. You were hurt and you needed me. You don't know, but I came to visit you in the hospital everyday that you were there. I took time out of my day to make sure I saw you no matter the weather. The doctors and nurses all knew me by name. You were all that was on my mind, you were all that I cared about. Nothing else mattered to me; school, friends, family. All of it meant nothing to me because all I could think about was you. So for you to come out of your coma and just brush me off like I wasn't shit, that hit me deep. I am trying to forgive you, but getting over some shit like that, it takes time. I just need some time and some space." My heart aches when Jordan turns to face me and I see him crying, his face is covered in tears. He looks a mess, I feel terrible. I want to say something, but no words find my lips. So I get up from the bed and leave the room. I take off running, unsure of where I'm going. I just know I have to get away from here, away from this room, away from this school and most of all, away from Jordan.

***

*RING* *RING* ... *RING* RING*

I roll over and let the voicemail pick up the call from Jordan again. He's called me 45 times since I left him alone in our dorm room two days ago. I just don't want to see him right now; I don't want to see anyone. I just need some me time, I'll go back to school tonight so I can sleep in my bed. I'm just nervous because I'll have to see him.

"Aaliyah! What the hell! You know I have been worried sick about your ass! Where the hell have you been?" I hear a voice yell at me. A voice that I thought I'd never hear again.

I turn around to see Shy running towards me. She pulls me into a big hug, then let's me go and punches me in the arm. "What the hell Liyah? We have all been worried sick about you, Jordan came to me crying and shit. He said that you ran away and he was calling you and you just kept not answering him. I better call him and tell him I found you."

"No, Shy, please don't call him. I don't want to see him right now." I turn and look away for a minute. I grab Shy's hand and pull her into the bathroom of the mall. I sit up on the sink, Shy joins me. I take a deep breath and say, "Shy, I'm surprised that you were even looking for me. I thought you hated me since, well you know."

"Oh, I'm still pissed at you, but you're still my best friend. I knew you needed me, so here I am." Shy smiles at me.

I reach and pull her into a tight hug, "Thank you so much Shy, I don't know if it matters, but I really missed you."

Shy hugs me back, "I missed yo crazy ass too."

***

"Aaliyah come on, you have to come back to school, you've already missed two days." Shy tells me as she tries to pull me towards the car.

"Fine, I'll go back. I'll go back to school but I just don't know if I'm ready to talk to Jordan yet." I look away to hide my face.

"Come on girl, let's go so we can be ready for school tomorrow, you can sleep in my room tonight. I'll tell Ty he can't come over so we can talk."

"Okay Shy, and about Ty... That situation is nothing like what you thought it was..." I say nervously.

"I don't want to talk about that right now, just forget it all. I don't care anymore. I'm over the whole thing."

"Okay, thank you Shy. Thank you for being here for me and for being such a great friend." I smile a huge smile at Shy as we get into the car.

"Don't get all lovey dovey on me now, come on. We gotta get back to campus."