In Too Deep

The monster who lives.

I'm a firm believer in second chances. But what my dad did to my mom was unforgivable. Yes he cheated... plenty of times. But who he did it with is the problem.

He slept with my aunt, my grand mother, my older older cousin and my therapist. And I was just naming a few. You might be laughing right now. I would too. My mother was so heartbroken she turned to the bottle every chance she got. She cut off her sister and her mother from her life no matter how many times they apologized.

My mother hasn't been the same since the day she found out about my fathers infidelity. She became abusive towards me and Cameron but mostly towards my father, she became neglectful and well.... a drunk.

Flashback
"Hey mom what's for.... mom? What's wrong why are u crying and sitting in the dark?" I sat on the closet floor with my mother scooting closer to her

"You look just like your father" she slurred her words. "You and him make me sick! I could've had everything! But your father, your dead beat father had to ruin it and cheat! How funny is that Zee?" She chuckled lightly as she slurred her words and took a big gulp of the drink she had in her hand. "I have nowhere to go. I have no family, no money.... no mom, no sister, and for god sakes even your fucking therapist Pam"

I sat next to her speechless and dumbfounded. "Mom what are u talking about? What do grandma and auntie have to do with anything?"

My mother turned to me looking deep in my eyes. Her eyes still wet and red from the tears. They held a softness until they grew angry. She fisted my hair in hands holding tightly pulling strands at a time burning my scalp. "Mom please stop! I'm not Dad please!"

''Shut up Zaleah, you were the cause of everything! We were so happy before you" Hurt by her words my whole body went numb by the number of emotions that ran through me at the moment.

"Mom, you don't mean this please let me go.. you're drunk" I held back in anticipation that my words will register to her. We sat in silence for what seemed forever until her sobs filled the silence as she slowly let go of my hair.

"Baby I'm so sorry, please forgive me. I'm going to change I promise, i'll even stop drinking! See i'll prove it." she said as she stood up with the bottle of whiskey in one hand and reached out for my hand with the other. I hesitantly place my hand into hers standing up, she pulled me to the bathroom connected to her closet. "This is my promise to you" she looked at me with soft eyes rubbing my cheek. I watched as she poured the whiskey down the drain with no hesitation and no look of regret on her face.

"Thank you mom" I said pulling her into a tight embrace feeling her body stiffen under my touch but soon relaxes and hugs me back.

"I love you sweetheart.. I think I'm going to ask your father for a divor-" she stop abruptly as a deep voice interrupted her.

"Ask her father for a what my darling wife?" my father said with a intimidating tone as he took long strides across the bathroom in his blue suit. My father was a handsome man and was a womanizer as my mom put it when she used to tell me stories about before they met. I looked mostly like him, caramel skin, hazel eyes, and black hair. The only things I got from my mom was my height and hour glass figure.

"This is a conversation we shouldn't have in front of our daughter Charles, don't you agree" she said looking at my dad with pure hatred and my dad with the opposite. His eyes held love whenever he look at her like he never cheated, like nothing else matters, but little did I know it was an illusion.

"You're right darling" he said smiling at my mother but then shifted his attention to me. "Princess can you give us a moment please?"

"Sure" I said quietly and nodding as I headed out their bathroom, closing the door behind me. I reached the hallway when I heard my mom cry out in pain. I ran back in the bathroom to find my mom on the floor with my dad standing over her, his knuckles red.

"Zaleah get out of here now!" my dad shouted in my face pushing me back slightly making me lose my balance and trip and hit my head on the counter. I felt the darkness taking over me slowly as my mother yells my name.

"Sweetheart can you hear me!? You bastard call 911 she's bleeding hurry!" my mom wrapped me in her arms rocking me back n forth. I saw the tears in her eyes and the bruise forming around her eye and lips as my vision started to blur.

"How long has he been hitting you?" I struggled to say as black dots appeared in my vision.

"A while.. but sweetie stop wasting you're energy the paramedics is going to be here soon, oh baby im so sorry this happen to you. You weren't supposed to see this." her sobs echoed throughout the bathroom as her whole body shook with her tears falling. "I'm your mother im supposed to protect you, instead I let this happen baby I'm so so sorry". I looked at my mother with tears forming in my eyes as blackness finally took over me and I blacked out and finally could be where I belonged.