In Too Deep

No will to live.

(Continuation of the flashback)

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

Am I in heaven? Or this hospital? Why didn't I die? I should've died..

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

What is that annoying sound? Can someone please turn it off!? I slowly opened my eyes to the bright lights above me, squinting my eyes to adjust to the light. I tilted my head to familiarize myself with my surroundings. I looked down at my hands to see the tubes and needles pressed in my body that lead to the annoying beeping machine. I looked around the hospital room, the walls were a boring beige color to match the gloominess the hospital seem to capture.

I sat up as I saw the shadow of footsteps under my door. "Doc how's she doing?" I heard the deep voice of my father. I quickly shut my eyes as their voices became louder as they came in the room.

"She's fine, we managed to stop the bleeding but sir, if you don't mind me asking how did this happen?" the doctor asked sounding genuinely concerned.

"She has a very complicated relationship with her mother... her mother tends to drink a lot of recently... she's been having family troubles".

"Her mother did this? Sir i'm supposed to contact the authorities she's her child, She's not supposed to be putting her hands on her child like this."

"Doctor that wouldn't be a wise decision to make, given I know your family, now i'm not threating you but I will offer something you wont be able to refuse.. money and a good amount of it but only if you keep this hush to anybody and everybody and maybe put it as a.. accident on her records."
I kept my eyes closed trying to make it aware that i was awake.
"Yes sir that absolutely no problem, I'll leave you alone with her and come back to check her vitals" the doctor said we a grunt as he opened and closed the door. Now all was left was my fathers footsteps across the floor. I felt the tension in the room increase as i felt him coming closer beside the bed.

"I know you aren't sleep darling, i'm your dad remember?" he said in a deep chuckle as i felt the foot of the bed dip due to his weight. I opened my eyes slowly and looked into his stone hazel eyes. "Zee I don't know what too say, I apologize for your mother.. again you know she loves you right?"

I stared at my father waiting for him to say more, to defend mother and to wait for his apology. But as the silence lingered i knew he wasn't remorseful. I felt the tears slowly make it's way down my cheek, my hatred for this man grew with every time be blinked waiting for a response.

"You blame her!? Her?! She's not the one who put me in the hospital father. She's not the one cheating with anything that has a vagina!" i screamed at him with so much hatred. "I get abused by her because of you! I hate you!". Silence, the only sound you can hear is the beeping of the stupid machine. My father stood abruptly fixing his green suit in the process, his eyes never leaving mine.

"You ungrateful bitch" he said as he slapped me across the face the stinging unbearable as i held onto my face as more tears made its way down my face faster. "Your'e just like your mother un fucking grateful, i knew we should've gotten an abortion" my spit out as he started walking towards the door. He turned around once more with his hand on the knob giving me a cold glare once more before leaving me alone sobbing in the cold hospital room, with a stinging face and no will to live anymore.