When I woke up I heard yelling? It was Nick and his mother yelling at each other? his mom was talking about me and telling me to get out of the house before things got bad? i got so scared so I walked out I was very worried about Nick and I guess i was wrong about that All good things come to a good end? No they always come to a bad end why did i even try to make that sound good in the first place now I feel like it's all my falut for saying that but she just doesn't like me so it's her fault I can't force someone to like me because that's the smart thing to do forcing people will never help you in life and I learned that the hard way from my dad forcing me all the time I learn from experience so I have a reason but this whole thing is getting out of control...... well it hasn't got out of control yet until she starts throwing things so I better get out of here now while I still have the chance. So as I drive away I know Nick is probably very pissed off about his mom coming in like that and disrespecting me but I want to see how he can handle it cause if he can handle his own mother than it will train him to be better and not so afraid even thought he's already calm, cool and collected. But I have to do what's right and right now the right thing would be to walk away from someone else's fight. But that doesn't mean I don't care about him It just means that , that's his battle and I don not want to make anything worst. I hope they work it out and fix the problem I just don't want any violence. Okay well I have to get my mind off of it and get some rest If i think about it too much then it will get worst in my head and I'll want to go back so no more thinking about it let him fight his own battles. So as I go home I get ready for bed I eat one more time use the bathroom, take a shower Change my clothes brush my hair spray myself with perfume and lay in bed I text my friends that I was going to sleep since it was 9: 30 and they all said goodnight. i put my phone on the charger and fell asleep. When I woke up I felt wet and cold hands on me like they were shaking me to wake up? but i don't know if it was a dream or reality? as I finally opened my eye's it was Nick?! he had blood all over his hands and he was telling me that he had did something wrong and that he wanted to fix it? I told him what happened and he said frustation and tears? I don't know what that was suppsoe to mean but maybe it'll come to me later I followed him as he took me to his house and showed me what the problem was. As we arrived his mother was diassembled all over his front yeard? I aksed what did he do and he told me that he was so mad at his mother that he had to kill her? Knowing me I am kind of a spritual person when it comes to people like him and I Wish he never would've done this. I told him that violence is never the answer to your problems when it comes to the people who get on your nerves. Me- you have to understand the element of god and pray to him when it comes to disagreements but killing a person was never in his book of wisdom? Nick what I want you to do is turn yourself in and face the fact that you killed your mother trying to cover up and hide is definetly not the answer to what just happend you are the person and human being who done this now it's up to you to bring fate back to your own life don't screw up like this to fix someone else's or even mess someone else's life up if you wouldn't do it to me then why do it to her? Nick- Was sitting there crying the whole time praying to god and thinking about what I said. He has to understand that what he did was wrong and devious his mom was only made at him because of me and now he does this to someone who didn't deserve to die. when his father heres about this he will not be happy and he will not want to see me so I have to stay hiddeen from Nick for a little while and well he's gonna have to accept that and i want himt o do that for me and for hiself. He told me that he wanted to turn himself i and that he will do this for me and wish that his mother goes to a better place ever since he killed her this way. H ecalle dthe police and well all we can do is pray and let him stay in jail for what he did that's how the world works and you have to accept what you have now because when it's gone your gonna miss it alot and you can't get it back. For now he needs to understand what his temper can do to the other people and the thing that makes it all worst is that he acted so innocent to me and then he does this..... what am I suppose to do and what am I suppose to think? I just don't want to talk to him after this but it will leave pain in his heart if I don't talk to him. This will be a harsh life for me now.
