So now i have to tell my friends and i know they won't be happy about it or believe me. The police are right behind me asking me questions and try to arrest Nick. He looks so miserable but he had to go tot jail I can't keep secrets like this one and well he learned his lesson but i still love him like a boyfriend but i guess were gonna have to miss that date to so that makes him even more sadder. I call up my friend and I told them about it I could hear them going ( oh she's just joking) But I asked if they could come down here and check it out for themseleves and they did they finally seen the evidence that I was right for the first time. And well they didn't take it so well and i Had to watch them cry for him to get out of jail. But it is what it is and now the deed is done and there's nothing we can do about it. I feel really bad but this is how it has to be I hate to be the person who doesn't care but to hold this in your head will only make it harder on someone like me ecspecially me if you feel the way I feel then you'll understand I am crying and breaking and trumbling inside!! i just act so calm on the outside because I know how to control my tears and sadness and showing people weakness is not reallya good sign sometimes my dad always taught me to keep my head high and never let anyone bring you down wether it's someone I know or someone I don't know he taught me that lesson and I will follow it always. But he's not here to look out for me and Nick killing his mother was like trying to watch me kill my own because she left me? That's not the way to go and I wish he could've seen that In himself to just let go of the converstation. As he was walking inside the police car he had wanted to say something to me and that something was that he liked and loved me but I'm starting to get mad at him for doing this but i just taught myself a lesson about this and well What should I do i can't say i love you back then hug and kiss then have sex in jail that would be stupid. He needs to be ignored for what he did like a dog and act like a man , a mature man wouldn't just walked away from the despute but he had to be the one to stick up and kill people for that right answer I don't know if I want to talk to him anymore. My friends keep telling me don't cry, don't cry, don't cry but their the ones crying on me I didn't shed one tear and I won't but seriously what the heck. So when I was going home again i noticed that kept running through my mind? Why would you murder your mother just because she yelled at you and then ask me for help? Sometimes i wonder how he thinks inside his own mind ( Phone rings) Courtney- Hello? Stranger- I want you to stop walking and turn around? As i slowly turn around there's someone behind me holding a gun? he told me that if I didn't do what he said he would shoot? But i refuse to let someone control me this way with violence i am not that weak person and I never have been. At first I did what he said then when he turned to see if anyone was coming i went for it ! I tackled him at first he did try to fight and then i stopped him before he did try to hit me. I was on him like a police officer and i still had my phone with me. I called the police and unmasked this jerk? Turns out it was Kevin? one of the guys we or i met at the party, why was he trying to shoot me then i found why? he was on drugs and had been drinking! he has never done this before but wow i never thought this would happen as i waited for the police to come i he talked to me. Kevin- why did you kill nicks mom? I didn't i told you guys nick had odne it i was sleep at my house and he was yelling with his mother why do you think I'm he bad guy Kevin? Kevin- you guys hang out now and well i thought you got jealous of his mother and so i got mad at you for that. Kevin why would you think that i would never kill anybody in my whole entire life you have understand that about me. I'm never who people say I am i will always be the oppiste okay. The police finally came and they took him, now that's two guys in jail and now i don't know what to do once again i have to tell my friends and then get on with my life now i see why i don't get involed with boys that much and now nick's dad will be mad too? ugh i wish all of this didn't happen. You think you know some people or guys and they turn out to be killers instead of friends. I told my friends then headed back home to get some rest even though it was 10: 00 in the morning now. It always is better to take a nap anyways it's not like i have school. I put some new pajamas on and went to bed charged my phone again and then fell asleep. I hope i don't have a dream about this whole thing cause that would be awful for me.
