It's the day when i have to meet Nick at jail today? what a surprise right i mean it was like yesterday well it's not such of a surprise but i have to be nice to him for goodness sake. When i got dressed and fixed everything on me i was ready to go. My friends were ready to drive me there and i was ready to see him again. But I'm still worried about that kiss? i know i shouldn't think about it but it's stuck in my head and now i wish i could go back to that day which was yesterday of course. But i didn't tell my friends and i sure hope he didn't tell his so i guess were done with this conversation. As we got there some people were outside breaking rocks and the rest was just working out. I went inside with my friends and they walked way to far behind me? I could tell they were talking about someone they always do that when they talk about someone. So i finally seen Nick and he was smiling and had tears down his eye's. He acted like he didn't see me in years but i guess that's how it feels when you fall in love and then get seperated. He was trying to give me a hug but there was glass in the way of the hug. We had to talk with to telephones and it was kind of awkward? the phone was loud and he was talking about personal things like sex and how much he loved me but i can see how in love he was with me so i gave him that. I wish i could help him but i hardly have any money to get him out. If my friends love him so much then why don't hey bail him out themseleves and so I told them that. They all were kind of rich anways and so they did try. They were able to bail him out for four weeks and the n the rest he would have to go back to jail for five more days. so he had some time with me for the past weeks. We laughed and had little parties with just us and then we did have some romantic times together. he got ome time with his friends and then wanted me again. I got him a present and he was so happy about it he loved everything about it we did alot for those four weeks and we loved every minute about it. We love eachother very much and we were also able to squeeze in that date he promised so that made everyhting right but i felt guilty not telling him about the kiss? i don't want him killing anybody else especially me or david. But i needed to tell him. Ummm Nick? Nick- Yes sweetie? I have to tell you something , it's about me and ummm David? Nick- Let me guess you guys made love didn't you? No we just kissed but it was awful and it happend on accident please don't get mad at him it was all my fault and I'm sorry nick. Your the only one i want trust me and i would never do you wrong i swear please believe me, then he kissed me? he was deeply , strongly and agressivly kissed me? i wanted him to stop but i didn't want to make him mad or anything? i guess with him when he's jealous he kiss me with anger not with love. So i played along like i enjoyed and i did but not that much he's better when he's softly kissing me not madly. We were on te couch when that happend and he was taking my clothes off and putting his hands on me. I know he wants to get back at me for what i did but he didn't have to all he had to do was except the fact that i didn't mean too and get over it but no he had to punish me for it. It was getting painful and he kept slapping me really hard my skin was turning red and he was bitting my lips? he told him to stop but he didn't get off of me when i got up he pulled me back down i had no where to run but i needed him to stop he's really hurting me. He started getting on top of me and it was only so i wouldn't get up and well it worked i really could not get ip at all. I wish he didn't do this to me and which it feels like rape abuse i hope he knows i could still send him to jail but it seems like he wouldn't care anyways just as long as he got revenge. He has anger problems and i want him to control it before it gets out of hand. He kept pulling me and bitting me and scratching me and and just plan hitting me all over. He wasn't gonna stop until i got sick of it and trust me I'm sick of it. He was very anger and was really showing it in his make out scene with me and now I don't do this anymore i want him to leave and just get away from me. When he got up he had went to the kitchen and grabbed something? i don't know what it was but he came out mad with it? as i was backing up to the door he was walking to me like he was gonna kill me and i knew he was? what do i do now he has something and there's no where to run the door is locked and I'm the one ho's locked in? who will hear me if i scream i live next door to people who have strict manners and rich houses what should i do now???
