So as he comes toward he pulls out what he has and it's a steak knife? he wants to stab me with it and kill me because i kissed his friend but why....... why do you want to kill me for that? He walks up to me and and he takes my hand? He says ( I know you didn't mean it but i know that you liked it your not fooling any one like me) then he say's I'm sorry and starts stabbing me to death?!!!??!?!?!?!?!?! as I scream for help no one can hear me his phone rings and he didn't answered it? he stabbed me five times already and then stops because he couldn't carry on? he stabbed me right where my heart was but Right below my breast! it was in my ribs and it was so painful i couldn't breathe and i was bleeding for 3 hours now he sat there crying and saying I love you so much how could you do this to me, he kept saying apology'while holding my hands. His white T-shirt covered in my blood his hands wet from my blood i was sitting in a puddle? He called the ambulance and actually let me live they took a long time to get here but i was starting to black out? Nick kept saying stay with me court please stay with me? but i could hardly hear him anymore and then i collapsed. When i woke up i was in a truck someone was sitting over me and i was seeing blur? i was in the ambulance truck and they were taking me to the hospital. They were all praying that i would make it in time before i died and they did get there on time. When i got there they put me on the strecher and i was going to the emergency room. i was getting worked on but i had sleeping medicine so they could work on me with no pain. It took 5 hours and then i would be done. as i sat there in pain i heard a familiar cry? it was Nick and he was waiting outside the door. i wonder why he didn't just kill me already but he does have an emotional problem with anger so now i see why. i wish he could've just left me the way i was instead of killin me like this. I know david won't take this well but i had to tell him. Things will get better for me and i know god will help me through this stuff. No matter what i do i know he will help me survive any situation and he will help me find the one who will treat me right. For now all my sore wounds have to heal and yes i am talking about my feelings too. Nick is a good man don't get me wrong but he needs to stop controling things his way and thinking that everything he says is right because it's not. i don't know what to do anymore because i know he's mad at me and well i'd rather be the one to die then poor david i love him and well i love nick too and it will always come down to this question? What will it be? who will you pick? this is only on you courtney and now i have to decide what i want to do for myself. Sometimes you have to do what's right and on this case david might be the right one ofr this pick and this girl but i don't wanna lose Nick? but he can't keep killing all his life so i need him to chnage if he wants to be with me cause i can't except a guy who kills and defeats the purpose of life. Whenever i get out of here i want to tell him that and i want him to just leave me alone for now he's too mean to me and i can't except that from a guy. For now i just want to be with david or someone else i don't care just as long as it' not nick. my friends should know that and i want them to understand too, without them understanding they will only get mad at me for doing that so i need them to agree and which they don't know that this happend to me and i have to tell them that too. Bailing him out was the wrong idea i don't know why i said to? It's all my fault and now i have to fix my life and i wish i knew who and where my parents are? it's not fair to grow with the ones you love the most and the ones who loved you the most. Sometimes i have to suck it up but the rest i want to just let all my tears out. Well I'm healing and i have to wear this ace badage for a while but i can still do things like i want and that's all i care about for now. When i get out i will hug david for the longest and get Nick arrested again for what he did. Who he is , is a women slautter he only kills women to me i have never seen him kill a man before but he'll get whats's coming to him one day and that one day will be his dad coming back since he didn't tell him about what happend here. i can't wait until that day when he gets yelled at i mean i don't nick to die but i want him to get his punish meant for giving me mine. I know what i want now and sure enough it's not him. As the doctor walks in he gives me some medicine again and then tells me that i was doing great during the treatment i was glad to hear that and i was so happy to see him taking care of me.
