Let It Go (magcon fanfic)

Chapter 7

•Nash's P.O.V•

when Cameron came and told us we had to go to the hospital, I had no idea this would be the reason. I sat on a chair nervously shaking. I looked at the kid Courtney had talked to, Wyatt. "how did you know this happened?" I asked. he pulled out a crumbled note out of his pocket. "it was under the door." he said. i read it and my eyes widened. a few minutes Taylor came into the waiting room, only one person was allowed In there, and now there mom was going in there. "this is all your fault!" I screamed in his face. "what?" he asked. I threw the note at him. "I FUCKING TOLD YOU!" I yelled. I watched his face change as he read the note. "no... this is not right. she didn't write this." he said. "yes she fucking did Taylor. open your eyes! you need to realize what you've fucking done. I don't even know what you've done, but you obviously know something." I spat. "shut the fuck up." he said. he walked out of the waiting room. everyone else in the room had turned and looked at us with wide eyes. "what did the note say?" Jack G asked. Courtney hadn't talked to many of us, everyone was pretty clueless about the whole situation besides Cameron and Matt. and me and Taylor of course. "suicide..." I spoke softly. I don't know Courtney very well, but she's perfect in very single way. I like her, I really do. the only thing is, she might now make it through everything. and that's why I'm reacting the way I am. After I said suicide everyone's faces softened. "her body was very bad..." Cameron whispered. "what?" I asked. I had no idea he saw it. "she was cut up all over... and she looked bad." he spoke. "how did she try? did she like jump off the balcony or something?" Hayes asked. "Hayes don't have stupid fucking questions. if she had jumped off the balcony she would be dead." I snapped. I figured Courtney took pills and overdosed, nothing harmful like that. "she cut herself." cam said. "what does that even mean?" Shawn asked. "she literally cut herself. she cut her arms, legs, stomach, every part of her body. she took pills too, and then laid in the bathtub." Cameron responded. what. the. fuck. before we could say anything else Taylor and Courtney's mom came in the room. her eyes were bright red, along with her face. and she had tears running down her cheeks. "she... uh.. won't be awake for a very long time. she might not wake up.." she announced. "what?" Wyatt asked. "she lost too much blood. they got as much as they could back in her body, but she needs lots of medical treatment. she had to have 42 stitches to heal her cuts." she answered. my stomach dropped and I immediately felt sick. "if you guys want, you can come see her... she won't respond. only if you guys actually want to. I know she didn't talk..." she said. "she talked. she talked to me." Matt answered. I didn't know Matt actually talked to her. "that's actually a surprise." their mom said. I watched as she sat in a chair and tried to hold back her tears. I felt so bad for her. could you imagine having one of your kids In the hospital, barely alive, because of suicide. she told us only two people could go in at a time. Taylor was already in there, so Hayes went in. I took a seat next to Ashley, their mom. "I talked to her.... I could tell she was having a hard time with Taylor." I told her. "I know she did, I wanted them to get along. I thought they fought because she was mad at him for telling me about her drug problem. I didn't know that she felt that bad about him..." she said. "she had a drug problem?" I asked. "yeah.. she was having problems with school, boys, you know the usual, she started hanging out with the wrong crowd, and got into drugs. not like extreme drugs. but she started smoking, and drinking. Taylor told me and she flipped out on him." she said. my mouth hung open. "wow..." was all I could say. Taylor and Hayes came back, so I went with Calmeron to see Courtney. we went into the room. her face was untouched, but looked very pale and weak. I looked at her arms and immediately regretted it. long slashes and cuts were exposed. I gasped at the sight and turned away. why exactly did she do this? we stood there for a few minutes, in complete silence. I broke the silence and said, "do you think she'll wake up?" Cameron shook his head, "I don't know." we stood there for a few more minutes then decided to leave. we went back to the hotel and figured we needed sleep. I went to my room with Matt, I heard soft snoring coming from his bed. I laid there for what seemed like hours and I never fell asleep. the images of Courtney's arms and lifeless body stayed in my head. when the sun started rising, I slowly fell asleep.

I HAD SUCH A HARD TIME WRITING THIS, I HONESTLY

DIDNT KNOW WHAT EVEN TO WRITE.

but anyways. I'll start updating everyday, well at least I'll try to.(: