Miscellaneous Poetry

My Universe

I, the darkest shadow in the darkest part of the universe, will forever be in love with you. The brightest star.

    When I look at you, your smile is so bright, I must look away. For if I dont, your beauty and happiness shall rid of every last shade of me. You are my Achilles heel, and my ability to withstand pain.

    You, the brightest star, are my life and death. My only fear is that if you get too close, my darkness will swallow you whole and you will no longer be.

    I want to tell you, but you keep getting closer and closer. I want to stop you, but you're too powerful.

       Then, I see it. You are no longer smiling. You are no longer shining brighter than every other star. I see a tear slide down your perfect cheek. Then another, and another. Until your beautiful face is red with pain and grief. Until the acid of sadness eats away at your soul.

     I feel that there is nothing I can do. Maybe there is, but I can't find it. Normally I would ask you what I should do, but I can't. For you have told me something and I don't know what to do. I freeze. My only thought is that you must stay away. I must protect you. Even if it means hurting you in the process.

     I push lightly to test your reaction. You are smiling again. Then you see what I've done and frown slightly. I don't hear you laugh the rest of the day. I can't do it. Every time I look at you, every time I  hear your voice, I think back. Back to the conversation we had that night. I didn't know what to say.
 
    I could only hope that what I did say would help you. That what I did say could keep you from turning into something like me. I'm sorry. So so sorry. For what I did and for what I may do. I cannot hurt you anymore. That small amount of pain I saw in your eyes told me so.

     I now must try to help you, but keep my distance. For you seem so fragile and just the tiniest bit of me may ruin you forever.

 When I'm alone, I look at my self in the reflection of water. I've changed. I'm not as much a dark black pit, but a grey blob forming into something new. You have helped me so much. And I now know, I will do anything and everything to help you back to your self. Back to what you should be. To what you need to be. You have done so much for me. I cannot do anything but try to return the favor. All I can think about now is if I can actually do this.
Will my plan work?
Will I make it worse?
What will be the outcome?
I cross my fingers and set to work. Trying to find all your broken pieces.

It's been what feels like forever
Since that dreadful tear.
You have continued to help me
And I you (I hope).
I love you
That wasn't the plan at first,
But I'm glad it happened.
There are still dark days
And moments.
But we work together
To fight the darkness away.

It's amazing
How my form went from a black hole
To somthing new.
Not a star like you,
But somthing else.
I only wish I knew what.
It doesn't matter though.
I feel as if I shall be with you till the end of time
And I'm completely okay with that.
I love you
It's impossible to say it too many times.
I Love You

I hope to the end of time
That we survive life together.
Hand in hand
Maybe if we are lucky,
We'll make it till after life too.
Into whatever comes next.
We can be something new together.
Something wonderful.
Something absolutely amazing.
As long as we are together.
I love you

My Universe
It's filled with stars I love
And ones I dont.
My Universe
And you're the best part of it.
You
The brightest star of them all