NBSB (no boyfriend since birth)

Chapter 1

che: may boyfriend ka ba?

me: wala.

che: tomboy ka ba girl,, :)

oh my gosh!,,simpleng chat namin ng friend ko sa fb,,but it became an alarming bell for me,,yes,im single at the age of 30,,so what?its not a big deal for me,,i have a loving family,supportive friends,nice job,better life so far,,im happy & contented,,well,sometimes i have a thought of my singleness,,i dont want to grow old all alone ofcourse,,but that doesnt bother me for now,,im still young,not that old to be worried,,and FYI hindi porke single tibo agad,di ba pwedeng panget lang talaga,,waaahhh!,,i need to freshen up before i get madly crazy here,,

ooooppppsss!,,wow ha,,english talaga,,wait!,,baka naman madeads ako kasi naubusan ng dugo sa nosebleeding,,wahahaha,,tama,iligo ko na lang toh,,binitiwan ko na yung cp ko at bumangon na sa pagkakahiga sa kama,kumuha ng towel then lumabas ng kwarto para maligo.

"hoy,bakla,maliligo ka?ang lamig kaya,super!"si bakla,pinsan ko yan,si ate neng,girl po yan,,tawagan naming magpinsan "bakla",,kung bakit,paano at saan nagsimula yang weird endearment namin e hindi ko na maalala,,

"stressness ako e,,ayos nga yang lamig,,pampamanhid,,"bulong ko,,

"ano? may sinasabi ka?"

"sabi ko,,hindi naman masyado malamig,,sakto lang."

"bahala ka nga."

pumasok na ako sa banyo,,few seconds pass,,,

"ooooohhhh,,eeeeehh,,waaahhh,,"

yan po ang maririnig na tili ko sa buong bahay,,ang lamig,,fucking tape!,,may yelo ba yung tubig?

"sakto lang pala ha!,,wahahaha!"

lakas mangtrip nitong pinsan ko ah,,pagtawanan ba naman ako..

tinapos ko na ang pagiging masokista ko that time,,nagmadali na akong magshampoo,magsabon at magbanlaw (in that order ha!) and i tried not to scream,,baka pasukin na ako sa banyo,isipin nilang nirerape ako,,"wow ha,,assumerang frog ka,,rape agad?di ba puedeng hold up muna?,,ganda mo teh!"si alter ego ko,umeepal na naman,,waaahhh!,,im talking to my "other self",,nababaliw na ata ako,,

"hoy bakla,,anyare?,,buhay ka pa ba dyan o nanigas ka na sa lamig?"kinatok na ako ng pinsan ko.

"tapos na."sagot ko.

"ay bilis bilisan ok,,yung hot water ko lukewarm na oh,,ako naman,,"reklamo nya..nagpunas na ako at itinapi ang tuwalya sa katawan ko.

"o ano?sakto lang?"pang asar na bungad sakin ni te neng ng buksan ko ang pinto ng banyo para lumabas na,may dala na syang tuwalya at takure.

hindi na ako sumagot dahil lalo ako nilamig,dali dali ko nang tinakbo yung pabalik sa kwarto.agad na akong nagbihis,,super lamig talaga!

tinignan ko ulit yung cp ko,pero hindi ko na inopen yung fb kasi baka mabadtrip na naman ako e,,binasa ko na lang yung text sakin..

bessy: ui bessy yung lesson plan mo bukas ko na lang ibalik ha,,hindi na kami nakadaan ni papa carlo dyan sa bahay mo,,out of the way kasi,,sorry.

may missed call din sya sakin kaya tinawagan ko na lang.

"hello bessy,,im so so sorry talaga,,si carlo kasi may pupuntahan pa kaya mapapalayo kami pag dumaan pa kami dyan.sorry talaga."

"hey bessy i know already,nabasa ko yung text mo,,i just call you to say its ok,,nakakatamad kasi magtext e."

"ah ganun ba,,ok,,so see you tomorrow na lang,,hello daw sabi ni carlo."

"hello din,,ok,,bukas na lang,,bye!"

"bye bessy!"

then i press the end call,,tapos natulala na ako sa cp,,thinking na buti pa si bessy may lovelife,dalagang ina yan ha,,hindi sya nawawalan ng lovelife..hindi sya nawawalan ng boys kahit alam nilang may anak na si bessy,,well its not that im against it,bessy deserves to be loved,,lovable naman kasi sya,kaya nga bessy kami,bestfriend,,its just that i get pitty on myself,,well magkaiba naman kami ni thea(my bessy),,

hay,,tigilan na nga yang kaka emote,,lets just do some background check,,elementary teacher ako ng grade 6 sa subject na mathematics,,my friends saying bakit daw ako nagteacher,,hindi na daw ako makakapag asawa,tatandang dalaga na daw ako,,well sabi ko naman its not a big deal for me,i love my job & im happy with my life,,

"yah right!,,look at yourself!,,you're doing very well on that,,big eye glasses that almost covering half of your face,buhok na laging nakapusod,i don't undersrand why you allow it to grow that long if you are just going to hide it,,then the way you dressed,i understand teachers uniform,pero pati ba naman sa labas ng trabaho mo you have to wear such an old fashioned or should i say "manang" outfit,,if there will be a contest of "Bb.matandang dalaga" you will get the tittle together with all "best" awards,," litanya na naman ni alter ego,,

"here we go again,," as i rolled my eyes to my other self.

"i keep on repeating it to you hoping it will sink in to you're well guarded mind and heart,,na sana marealize mo that you can not live your life all alone,,well i don't think you call it life anyway,,mas mukha pang programmed robotic life yang takbo ng buhay mo e,,as in nakaprogram from the morning you wake up till the night you about to sleep,,and it sucks you know,," wow ha,lumelevel up ang reasonings ni alter ego.

"but this is how i want my life to be,,simple,,no complications,,"

"oh yes,,and you're planning to stay on your comfort zone until the day you die,,come on,,have life sally!,,"

"hey,,am i dead?"

"o marunong ka ngang sumagot ng papilosopo,,it just that only to me,,but not with other people,,you make sure you act and talk professionaly,period..so boring!"

"boring na kung boring,,but this is the real me and you are only part of it,,im still the master,,got it?" e di natahimik sya,,ok may point naman lahat ng sinabi nya,,but it scares me more,kasi nagiging matalino na sya kaysa sakin,one day she will come out from me,,hoooo,,so creepy,,wala baliw na talaga ako until i heard my favorite dj saying same things to one of the caller,,kinabukasan nasa jeep ako nun papasok sa klase ko,,nakaupo ako sa tabi ng driver,si mang lucas,,actually service ko na rin,kaya dun lagi ako nakaupo,reserve sakin yun e,,sa radyo natutok yung isip ko,here how it goes...

"we have a caller now and her name is lisa,,hello lisa." the dj

"hello mr.dj,," the caller

"so lisa anong kwento mo,,"

"kasi mr.dj im 35 yrs. old,,still single,,pero happy naman ako sa comfort zone ko,,kaya lang nung umattend ako ng high school reunion namin yung crush ko dati tinawag akong old maid,,ano po bang dapat kong gawin?or hayaan ko na lang tulad ng dati,,"

then the dj says almost same thing as what my alter ego said.

"iha,nandito na tayo." si mang lucas,,nasa tapat na pala kami ng school na pinapasukan ko..

"ay sorry ho,,hindi ko napansin,," napahiya kong sabi habang nagmamadali na akong ayusin yung mga gamit ko para makababa na ng jeep.

"mukhang malalim nga yung iniisip mo e,,pero tama naman yung dj sa radyo,,minsan kailangan natin subukan yung kakaiba sa naksanayan para mas makilala pa yung totoong sarili,,,o sige na at mahuhuli ka na sa klase mo,," nakangiting sabi ni mang lucas.

"salamat ho." yun lang ang nasabi ko hanggang sa makababa na ako ng jeep at umalis na si mang lucas.nakasunod lang ako ng tingin.im really that transparent para mapansin nya na yun ung iniisip ko!iba talaga si mang lucas,well bata pa lang kilala na nya ako.kaibigan din sya ng tatay ko.so it means alam nya yung sinasabi nya.

"oi bessy!" si thea.nasa likod ko na pala sya. "may naiwan ka ba sa jeep ni mang lucas?" at sinundan din nya ng tingin yung umalis na jeep.

"ha?wala naman." parang nagising kong sabi.

"ah ok,,so lets go,,malelate na tayo sa flag ceremony,,baka masabon pa tayo ni ms. magtalas,," aya sakin ni thea with matching make face as she mentioned our principal,,