Behind Closed Doors •G.D•

26.

You never know what you have until it's gone. You take everything for granted because you think the worst is impossible.

Until the worst happens, and you regret everything, you blame yourself cause you took it for granted. You wish you could bring it back and cherish it and never let it go.

But in reality, it's never coming back. You pray and pray for it to come back, you'll do anything for it to come back but your everything isn't good enough.

It's gone...

They're gone...

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It's been a week since his death and I've been living a night mare. Ethan moved back in because I'm not physically capable of taking care of myself.

He's been helping and taking care of me. I've been so sick this past week it's not even funny. Ethan has been begging to take me to the doctors but I won't let him.

Everything I eat I throw back up. I can't hold anything down, I can barely hold down ginger ale.

My stomach has been killing me, every time I stand up I get really dizzy, I have serious cramps and I'm always tired.

I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom, throwing up for the third time since I woken up. Gray wouldn't want to see me like this.

I got up and brushed my teeth. I tie my hair up into a messy bun and changed my clothes. I put on my Nike sneakers and walked downstairs.

"How are you feeling Sky?" I looked at Ethan and he looked exhausted. He had bags under his eyes, his hair was messy, his posture was bad. I felt terrible for him.

"I'm ok E... I'm going out to get some stuff, why don't you go get some rest..."

"Are you sure cause I don't want to be sleeping while your out...?"

"Yeah I'll be fine, I have my phone on me, do you need anything from the store?"

"No but thank you Sky..."

"Your welcome, call me if you need something."

I grabbed the car keys and my purse and walked to the car. I hoped in putting the key in the ignition and starting the car. Music softly played in the background as I drove to the nearest convenient store.

I parked the car and got out, not caring what I look like at the moment. I trudged into the store going straight to the medical aisle.

I grabbed what I needed and went to the checkout. There was a woman there, probably in her early 20's.

She looked at me and glared as she scoffed.

"Aren't you a little young?" She bagged my item as I handed her the money.

"Aren't you a little young to be bald? Cause that weave isn't fooling anyone honey!" I gave her a fake smile as I grabbed my bag walking out, leaving her in shock.

I drove home, going straight to my room.

I stood in the bathroom waiting, growing impatient. I know curiosity killed the cat but I need to know. My timer on my phone went off.

I stood in front of my full body mirror starring down at the stick that displayed two pink lines.

"Gray what am I going to do? How am I going to raise our child without you?"

I felt two arms wrap around my waist. I slowly lifted my head up, looking in the mirror.

A tear fell off my cheek as I stare at the love of my life that pasted away a week ago.

"Gray... I miss you so much! What am I going to do? I need you, I need to be with you! I thought about ending my life to be with you! I can't do this..."

"Sky your going to be okay! Like I said I'm always going to be here, I'm here right now, holding the love of my life and my future child. You can't end your life cause you would be ending two lives. I miss you too Sky and I love you so much!"

"But Gray I can't do this by myself! I need you here with me, I'm not ready to be a mom yet especially with out you, I have no one to help me..."

I watched in the mirror as Gray kissed my cheek and slowly disappeared. I turned around trying to stop him from going, only to realize, he was already gone.

"Gray! No come back..." I looked back into the mirror and started crying. Soon I heard a knock on my door.

"Sky are you okay? Why did you text me that you needed me?"

I looked from the closed door to the mirror furrowing my eyebrows. I never texted Ethan that I needed him, I never texted Ethan at all! I don't even have my phone, it's in my room on my night stand.

I walked out of the bathroom and past Ethan, ignoring his questions. I walked up to my nightstand and unlocked my phone.

It was already on the messaging app and on ethans contact.

Ethan I need you! I'm in my bathroom, please hurry!

That was sent 5 minutes ago but I didn't even have my phone. I smiled as I realized who sent it.

My phone went off indicating I got a text, but it was from an unknown number.

There's that smile I fell in love with! I love you baby girl!

Tears fell out of my eyes as my smile grew even wider.

Grayson was texting me and he's the one who texted Ethan. I was brought out of my thoughts by Ethan.

"Skylar will you please tell me what's wrong.!"

I looked up at him and smiled, letting tears fall down my cheeks. He furrowed his eyebrows at me in confusion, getting impatient with me.

"I'm pregnant..."