I Put My Heart Before My Mind

Maybe baby?

**Jenna's POV**

We ended up letting Kylie and Ghost keep Axel for a night and Ryan and I got away for one night. It was a nice break but I missed my baby boy.

"Momma!" Axel yelled from his room

I got up and went to his room

"What's up Axel?" I asked sitting on floor with Ryan and Ghost and Kylie

"Can I go with daddy?" He asked

"Sure, but go get a clean shirt. You have your lunch all over this one"

The boys left for the store and Kylie and I are are preparing for dinner.

"Zoey said she thought she was pregnant, but she isn't." I told Kylie

"Oh, wow, was she sad?"

"Kinda, but she wants to wait like another year before she has one" I told her

"I see." She said cutting into a tomato

"Oh no" I said covering my mouth and running to the bathroom

"Are you ok?" Kylie asked as I came back from the bathroom

"I don't know. Just tomatos have been grossing me out lately"

"Well, you told me the other day y'all were trying to have a baby. Are you maybe pregnant?" She asked

"I don't know, Kylie I honestly don't know"

"Well, only one way to find out" she said

Later that night

I looked down at the test in front of me. I can't work up the courage to take it. I want another baby. So I don't know why this is so hard.

"Babe, is everything ok?" Ryan asked knocking on the door

"Uh, yeah" I said putting the test back under the counter and walked out finding my husband right outside the door

"What's going on, Jenna" he asked

"Nothing babe, can we just go to bed please"

"Why are you crying?"

I sat on our bed and looked at Ryan "I think I'm pregnant"

"That's great! Why are you sad?"

"What if Axel hates us? What if we forget that we have 2 kids and stop loving one of them or what if aliens come and-"

"Jenna, slow down! We're gonna be ok. We'll be great parents, and Axel will love this baby as much as we will I promise"

"I wanna believe you, but I just I don't know. I'm more scared now than I was with Axel" I told him

"Well, I can promise you that no aliens will attack us." He said laughing

"Ryan! This isn't funny!" I said starting to laugh

"Jenna, I know. I'm sorry. Go take the test and we'll see what happens"

I went and took the test.

"Now we wait" I told Ryan holding the test in my hands

"Maybe we'll get a little girl this time" Ryan said smiling

"A mini Jenna" I said smirking

"She'll get into your makeup, run to me when she's scared"

"Grow up get a boyfriend" I said

"Ok I've heard enough. Is the test done?" Ryan asked

"Lets see" I said showing him the test

"Here we go" Ryan said looking at it