you know, i wrote about you today...
I wake every morning thinking about you
wondering why it had to be this way
trying to figure out how ill get through each second of every thought that preys
on my sanity
you were my vanity
my heavenly canopy
i seeked comfort and shelter in you
but there wasn't room for two
so of course threes weren't accompanied
always welcome
but never really comforting.
I've spent a lot of time consulting my conscience
trying to focus on believing this is not the end.
bc its the only thing that keeps the sorrows in
im constantly attempting to reach myself again
& breach her barriers, but they're not thin
neither of us are willing to give in
giving everything ive got
knowing I'm losing this fight
im still not willing to believe its over with the passing of night.
real feelings don't flee just because fear is in sight
even at rock bottom
i still feel like I'm falling
more and more in love with her
no matter the distance, i can't hide my feelings
i reek of heartache and desire to prove
shes my one and only true love
my drug
im a fien for her
i dreamed of her
I prayed for her
God gave me her
and i ruined us
how could i make such a fool out of this uncommon wealth.
to dishonor his grace
look her in the face
and tell her I'm done
sabbatoge our space
taint our bond
ignoring the costs
regardless of the signs
i allowed true love to be lost....
and now I'm left losing 2
myself and you
if only I could gain her back but first i must focus on my path
rehabilitate my past
hopefully one day,
when angels are at play
and stability is no longer at stake
we'll meet again
and we'll forever indulge in eachothers embrace.
