My Best Friend

New Madison?

Today marks 3 weeks without talking to Conner and i just i don't know if i can do it anymore i miss him like crazy and it's hard doing this because of what i told him. I told him i never wanted to see him again and honestly i can understand why he's upset with me and not talking to me but that doesn't mean i don't care about him I do I love him and i care about him and everyone knows that and i can't help but feel those butterflies in my stomach again when someone brings up his name or i see him and honestly it's time for a change. It's time for a new Madison i think i'm going to get a haircut and then see what i look like after i know that it's hard in life sometimes but i can't stop trusting someone that's apart of what best friends come with i didn't sign up to be played with or played on i cab't do it anymore it's time for change and it's going to happen. I say every time that it will get better but i don't know if i can believe myself even when i don't like myself.