Tails (mermaid au) - Levi x Eren

Eight

The kiss lasted less than three seconds. As soon as I realized what I was doing, I pulled away.

"Jean, I-I'm so sorry! I shouldn't have done that, I don't know what I was thinking."

Jean pulled me closer again.

"Eren, baby, don't worry. He's not here, is he? You can do whatever you want."

I pushed him away. "But this is not what I want! I don't want you, not anymore. I want Levi." My voice broke. "All I want is Levi."

Jean sighed.

"I'm sorry, Jean, I think it's better if I leave. Goodbye."

I swam away, I wasn't even going to say goodbye to Erwin and Armin.

Red coral usually didn't stay in a person's system for a long time, so I already felt it wearing off. I started to feel miserable again, even more than before.

I swam back to our cave, my parents were already asleep so I went to my room too. I collapsed on my bed and started crying.

I should have known that going to a party was a bad idea. I heard a knock.

"Go away."

"Eren," Armin said. "We saw you leaving, are you okay?"

"Do I look okay?" I asked.

Armin sat down next to me.

"What happened?"

"I don't want to talk about it."

"I'm sorry, Eren, we should have stayed with you."

"I get it," I snapped. "You were too busy licking Erwin's face."

Armin jumped back slightly, shocked by my reaction.

I got up. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that, I'm just upset."

"What did Jean do, Eren?"

I shook my head.

"You were together the whole time, I know for a fact that Jean would love to do it with you one more time, he told me. So what did he do?"

I sighed and looked at my hands. "We kissed."

"He kissed you?" Armin almost yelled.

I gestured for him to be quiet, then I shook my head.

"He leaned in, and I just kissed him. When I realised what I was doing I broke the kiss and left." I buried my face in my hands. "I'm so stupid!"

"No, Eren, you are not. After all, you were high."

"And? Being high doesn't make you kiss somebody!"

"It's okay, Eren, you were upset and Jean showed you affection. It's only logical that you wanted more of that."

"But I don't want Jean, I want Levi."

"I know, Eren, I know."

We talked a bit more after that, not about the incident. About what I had missed when I was gone, about Armin's wedding. Small talk, not anything important. Just things that could distract me. And it worked, until Armin left. As soon as he left, I was alone with my thoughts again. My thoughts wandered off to Levi, and I could not help but cry. I cried myself to sleep, and even my dreams were about Levi. The thought of him not coming back dominated my dreams, and when I woke up, I was once again in tears.

I was broken and the only person who could fix me, was the person who had broken me.